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Guys I am afraid.... I am afraid of God's Will for me. I have been denying it and not fullfill his will for me. It is me who haves the choice to do what he plans or to turn away from it. I am afraid because if I do it I will suffer tremendously... Though I remember the hard times in my life and trust me their were hard times. I saw God was watching over me because I put my life in his hands at the bad times. Well your guessing what have God's will for me. He wants me to be a missionary. I think its a awesome thing to do and I fully resepect every missionary but I still run away. I don't know why I do it. The are two reasons why I am doing God's Will.... 1st one is that how do I know this is God's will for me and the 2nd is failure, what happens if I fail. I know the feeling of failure trying to do something for God. I tried to saved my eithiest friend but he refuse... I was so dissappointed of myself that I failed. Please guys pray for guidance for me and also pray what I am going for college is for the greater good of God. *I am going to major in web design in Tennessee Techincal University*

I'll be praying for you. May God transform you and your mind to do His will, may He make His will clearer and clearer to you, and may He give you peace about choosing the path He has laid for you.

point one; when you work for God with all your being, you cannot fail. You talked to your atheist friend about things and he didn't accept God as Truth... does that mean you failed? Nope. I felt like that with my Mormon friend, but let me tell you something... you planted seeds by telling the truth and there is no telling when those seeds might start to grow. No, you did not fail; you did a very good thing for the Lord.

point two; God will not fail you/lead you down a bad road/etc.. God's way is better than anything we can plan. Nomatter what happens here on earth, you can be sure that if it happened while you were in a loving, submissive relationship to God, it will work out for the best in the end. Are you afraid to become a missionary because something bad may happen to you or that you may even be killed? Fear not! Matthew 5 says that those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake have a huge reward waiting for them in heaven. In light of that, you don't have to worry about what happens on the mission field. Who knows, He may use you to lead a huge number of lives to Him.

Otaku I know this thread is for you but what frwl just said was very encouraging. I, too, felt like I failed when I tried to witness to my roommate from my freshman year: she just cut me down and threw me in the shredder. I felt so discouraged from that that I once said I wouldn't witness to anyone for a very very VERY long time. But I soon learned that, even if my roommate made me feel terrible with her response, I still did a good thing by planting (or watering, not sure which one) the word of God. Anyway, frwl has already said more than I could. I understand what you're feeling Otaku. I'll pray as well.

Eloquently spoken, frwl. Don't look for the immediate results of your actions, just focus on doing those actions. I'll pray for you.