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honestly, I'm not doing very well. I'm seeing all of these couples wherever I go. In the mall, at church, at school; it just doesn't stop. I can usually ignore something like this, but now it seems like I'm becoming a bit of a pariah because of my extreme shyness toward women. Pathetic, I know, I'm almost 21 and I'm acting like a high school freshman (no offense to all you high school freshmen out there ). It's scary. I see them interacting, especially at church, and I wonder "why isn't that happening to me?" btw, about the church thing, it's always been my dream to be able to worship together, hand-in-hand, with my significant other. call me crazy, but it is.

Anyway, to get back on subject, my cousin comes to visit. I love the guy, but unfortunately he's quite the ladies man. Therefore, it's making me feel a lot worse than I did before. I'm definitely feeling like I'll never really measure up. Probably because of my individualistic ideal (i.e. - I never do anything - dress, speak, act, whatever - just because "everybody" else is doing it).

Ok... I don't really know what I'm asking you to pray for me about, so... just pray what you think I need prayer for.

P.S. - One more thing. I need a job, so please pray that I get one soon.

I'll keep both of them in prayer for you.

This is just MHO and may not necessarily apply to you, but it seems like the more one yearns for his or her soulmate, the less ready he/she really is for that person. Loneliness is difficult, but try to make the most of your being single by taking care of the things you'd otherwise have a hard time doing. The more content you are with yourself by yourself, the more prepared you'll be for a serious relationship. I'll pray that God's will be done in your life. = )

Very insightful, Roll! And I'll pray for you, Nightshade.

Thanks for everything, you guys! I'm feeling loads better.

By the way, Roll, what you said was something I definitely did not want to hear. However... it was exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you. Your words were perfect.