New doubts
PostPosted: Fri Jul 24, 2009 10:08 am
My faith has been pretty good for years. When I was fourteen or so I had that spell where you really start questioning and doubting that I think most Christians go through, but after a long time, it eventually evened out and I was fine. Very happy. Sure I had struggles, but I always was thankful my faith--the most important thing--was there.
Lately I've been having severe doubts that are bothering me heavily. It mostly started when I went to work and some girls were talking about that movie Knowing. I'd seen it and actually enjoyed it, but it led to some religious discussion and unfortunately a lady who was in the store (I work at a grocery store) overheard us and had to put her two cents in.
Needless to say, it became a situation of "I know everything the Bible states is true, however...what if it wasn't credited to God and actually was the work of something else"? She mentioned some silly theories about aliens or some rubbish. I guess her family member wrote a book on the subject or some bull, but ya...it was just like. Thanks lady. I really appreciate your input.
Needless to say, I know God is God and not some stupid aliens or whatever, but it's just irritating having this crap in my head. Especially since that's not it. There are "other" theories like, instead of aliens acting on their own, what if some other god sent the aliens to earth himself and just...ya. It's really absurd and insane stuff, but like I said, when you have people subject you to all this crap when you didn't even ask them? It's really annoying.
Plus it's one of those situations where, the more you think of it, your mind actually makes you think "this could make sense if you look at it from this angle". Yanno, basically you start believing and wondering if actually DOES make sense and if any part of it does, your mind only seems to fixate on that. You totally don't seem to focus on the stuff that disproves such ideas, so your faith gets worse and...it just sucks.
Like I said, it's so insane, but I'm sure someone can understand. If you had some lady have to come up and tell you about her brother in-laws's theories and you let yourself think about them (which most people probably would), it can end badly. I still pray to God and am even asking you to pray for me, I mean, I know He's the only one who can stop this and give me the answer I need but...man. I really wish He'd make this stop, it's getting aggravating and I don't like these thoughts. ._.
Lately I've been having severe doubts that are bothering me heavily. It mostly started when I went to work and some girls were talking about that movie Knowing. I'd seen it and actually enjoyed it, but it led to some religious discussion and unfortunately a lady who was in the store (I work at a grocery store) overheard us and had to put her two cents in.
Needless to say, it became a situation of "I know everything the Bible states is true, however...what if it wasn't credited to God and actually was the work of something else"? She mentioned some silly theories about aliens or some rubbish. I guess her family member wrote a book on the subject or some bull, but ya...it was just like. Thanks lady. I really appreciate your input.
Needless to say, I know God is God and not some stupid aliens or whatever, but it's just irritating having this crap in my head. Especially since that's not it. There are "other" theories like, instead of aliens acting on their own, what if some other god sent the aliens to earth himself and just...ya. It's really absurd and insane stuff, but like I said, when you have people subject you to all this crap when you didn't even ask them? It's really annoying.
Plus it's one of those situations where, the more you think of it, your mind actually makes you think "this could make sense if you look at it from this angle". Yanno, basically you start believing and wondering if actually DOES make sense and if any part of it does, your mind only seems to fixate on that. You totally don't seem to focus on the stuff that disproves such ideas, so your faith gets worse and...it just sucks.
Like I said, it's so insane, but I'm sure someone can understand. If you had some lady have to come up and tell you about her brother in-laws's theories and you let yourself think about them (which most people probably would), it can end badly. I still pray to God and am even asking you to pray for me, I mean, I know He's the only one who can stop this and give me the answer I need but...man. I really wish He'd make this stop, it's getting aggravating and I don't like these thoughts. ._.