CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

After all the efforts I made to change my lifestyle so I wouldn't be at the mercy of my depression and anxiety, I'm facing a relapse. I visited with my therapist just last week to check in and suddenly I can feel the bizarre shift in my emotions and thoughts that signal an episode. I inadvertently encountered a trigger when I was reading on the trails of Congolese women.
Anyone should be horrified, but I can't shake the emotion. The hollow and empty and yet so crushing despair and hopelessness is getting though whatever protection my medication afforded me. I do not want to get drug down into relentless suicidal thoughts again. I hate the voices.
Please, pray for my mental stability and for me to find a church. Finding a church is one thing I haven't succeeded in accomplishing, and I am positive spiritual dryness is part of why I am as subject to this kind of distress.

DS

Lifting you up, my sister. May God give you the strength and wisdom to pull down the strongholds and demolish every pretension that would set itself up against your knowledge of God, and to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ.

And thanks for your faithfulness to pray and offer up encouraging words for the other needs that are posted here.

Wow, that sounds rough! Definitely praying that you'll find a church and that you'll have peace of mind on all this.

I will be praying for you. I hope that you will find your church and that your thoughts will calm.

I'll be praying for you as well, sis.

My internet access is going to be sporadic for a while, but I will be sure to check in with you.