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I posted this as a note on Facebook, so this may be a repeat to some of you.

I was driving home from PT today and my Jennifer Knapp CD was in. I actually heard the words of this song for the first time (never really paid attention before). This is so what I am dealing with right now --I feel like I have left my first love for the Lord and have been getting distracted by so many lesser things --the call of lovers less wild, as Dereck Webb would put it ("Wedding Dress"). I pray that I would finally have the discipline to put God first truly and to have the fire in my soul again.

Peace by Jennifer Knapp

I come into this place
Burning to receive your peace
I come with my own chains
From wars I've fought for my own selfish gain
You're my God and my Father
I've accepted your Son
But my soul feels so empty now
What have I become?

Lord, come with your fire,
Burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Refine me

My heart can't see
When I only look at me
My soul can't hear
When I only think of my own fears
They are gone in a moment
You're forever the same
Why did I look away from You
How can I speak Your name?

Lord, come with Your fire,
burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

It's all I can do
To give my heart and soul to You
And pray, and pray, oh I will pray

Lord, come with Your fire,
burn my desires; refine me
Lord, my will has deceived me
Please come and free me
Come rescue this child
For I long to be reconciled to You

Refine me, refine me
Refine me, refine me

I pray that I would finally have the discipline to put God first truly and to have the fire in my soul again.

Awesome. That's the stuff! Praying for that.

I had some things happen today that really showed me that I cannot handle things on my own --that I need God's strength or I will burn out completely.

I would say that God definitely got my attention. I pray that I will have the discipline to put Him first and really put effort into my walk with Him --it's only by His strength that I'll get through all the stuff that's going on right now.

I have been so stressed and so worried about so much that I haven't really taken the time to listen to what God is telling me or what He wants to show me or what ministry He wants me to do. I have been feeling close to burning out (too much stressing/worrying will do that to you). I've been there, done that and don't want to go back again (I have a thread in Testimonies called My Story --for details, go there.)

I think what happened today was a warning that I am headed towards that again. I need to focus on the Lord and really trust that He's going to take care of everything. Work hard in school, do what He has called me to do, and trust Him to take care of everything else.

Please keep me in your prayers.

I will pray for you on this, as it is something I'm having to deal with as well.