struggles

[mysngoeshere56]

All right everybody...... soooooo here I am yet again.

Basically I'm trying to do some things with my life that I'll need prayer for.

Well first of all I want to increase in spiritual knowledge but that's something I always want. Please pray as I search for more.

Also, I know that being comfortable with where you are in your relationship with God is a very dangerous thing, because that's when one starts to backslide. I know that we should never feel satisfied and always want more. I admit that I've been getting comfortable lately and I would like prayer from my brothers and sisters as I try to fight this.

Also, I've gotten lots of bad treatment from Christians........ so it's really hard for me to trust anybody. Please pray about this.

In addition to that, it's hard, if not impossible, for me to find anywhere that I feel I can fully fit in........ so as you can probably imagine, I struggle with jealousy quite a bit. I haven't told this to anybody before, but I just realized how much I really struggle with it and how much I need prayer to stop it. There have been times when we've voted for who gets what award at the end of the school year...... I never vote for myself because I feel that would be selfish and rude..... but everybody else always gets it. I always feel happy for them, but at the same time I will admit that I feel just a tad bit of jealousy whenever I go unrecognized (which happens pretty much everywhere). I'm always kind of a wallflower and whenever I try to get a friendship started, it winds up simply backfiring, while it works for other people...... so of course I always feel a bit jealous of them for that. I do realize this and I've been fighting it for a long time. Please pray. I know everybody's a little selfish because that's part of human nature..... but please pray I can stop letting it get me down.

There's something else I struggle with but I'd rather not post it in public.

Thanks for the prayers.

[Sanderson]

Also, I've gotten lots of bad treatment from Christians........

Just remember, somebody is a good person or not depending on if they are a good person or not, not because of their beliefs. I believe in God, and yet I've been disliked by a lot of Christians and told that I'm going to Hell.