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I found out today my step-sister is **** at me, over things I didn't know were happening. And the whole time these problems were building up, she did everything she could to convince me things were fine, I was fine, and no problems were developing. I feel like a stupid freak screwup who ruins everything. I'm tired of being myself and ruining everything, and ruining everything, and having everything I do be the wrong thing to do. It's all so damned confusing. I'm really starting to believe every bad thing that happens to me is my fault, and I ruin everything, and I'm just not meant to have friends or be happy like everyone else, and now I wonder if I can trust anyone who says differently. I'm just so confused and so tired. I feel like I should cut off ties with everyone I know so noone has to deal with me.

Definetly praying!

I'm praying for you. You should keep praying for your situation too. Ask God for strength and encouragement. Depend on Him and grow closer to Him in this time of solitude.

In Romans 8:28-29 it says that "God knew what He was doing from the very beginning. He decided from the outset to shape the lives of those who love Him along the same lines as the life of His Son." (just a quick side-note: this is the translation from The Message)

Aedin, what this verse is saying is that God has chosen for us who have decided to love Him, to give us the same life as Jesus....meaning a life that is very much alive and not a curse.....

We all make mistakes, but every bad thing that happens is not your fault.....What satan may have intended to bring you down with, God will make something good come of it....All u have to do is ask Him for His help....We can't live this life on own strength......

You have my prayers....

Thanks all. I slept for a bit and am feeling better about some of it. Sometimes it's just overwhelming and it's hard to know how anything will be ok. I don't even know how to explain it. Sometimes it just gets really hard to feel like there's any hope or reason to have hope.

I'm praying, bro!

I heard something on the radio as part of a message by Pastor Greg Laurie. He said "I have a 10-step plan for overcoming depression. Step 1: Go out and help someone who has a greater need than yourself. Step 2: Repeat step 1 9 more times ."

I know it may sound dumb and insignificant, but it still has power. The more you (or any of us) take the time to focus on another person's struggles and spend less time focusing on your own, blessings come. As Paul (quoting Jesus) said in Acts 20:35, "It is more blessed to give than to receive." Anyone can become happy when receiving a gift. But one thing that makes us Believers stand out is our willingness to give.

Try it out. Doesn't have to be something significant. Maybe offer to buy a person lunch, or just sit with them so they have someone to talk to. Hope this helps .

Glad your feeling better! Definetly still praying for you to be able to control and surpass those thoughts. Love ya in the name of Christ!
God bless you!!!!