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Need lots of prayers right now.

For starters, my mom has her third kidney stone. Just the past year or so she actually got two. Only a few months apart. Apparently she has a history of it in her family, so this time they're going to analyze the stone after she passes it so they can give her medicine to prevent it, but until then? There is no medicine. They say it's the closest a man can feel to giving birth and my mom says its actually worse than that since at least with me it only lasted a little while. This pain has been lasting weeks and there is no medicine. Just stuff to deaden the pain, but otherwise you can't do anything except wait until it passes....and the hospitals are such low lifes.

They have the technology to break the stones up, but they won't do it unless it's a big deal (even though they know how painful they are and how badly my mom and dad would be willing to pay the money for it). It's like they're just too lazy or some crap, breaking the stone up isn't going to cause damage to her body or something...it's such crap.

I just feel so bad for her though. Last time she found out she broke down and started crying because they hurt so bad, so...please pray.

Also my dad just started acting weird today. Saying he's been feeling sick (like feeling cold when it's 80 degrees, and he usually gets hot easily), plus he says something is wrong with his foot. We told him to go to the hospital since he's the type who only complains when something really is wrong, but he refuses to do it and it's just...making matters worse.

Then finally I can't get close to God. This actually started before these issues, so it has nothing to do with not trusting Him or something, I just...can't get passionate. Been praying several times and asking for better faith and passion for Him and have even been asking to feel more concern over the things I NEED to be concerned about...but it's like it won't happen. I have that "don't feel like I care" feeling, which...I guess means I do, but because it feels like you don't, it really doesn't matter what other people try and tell you.

Some days ago I even had a talk with some fellow Christian friends of the family and discussed things with a guy very knowledgable about scripture, so that was awesome, but sadly the fellowship and praying doesn't seem to be working. I dunno why it's happening, but I don't like it. I'd like to even at least cry so I know I care if that makes any sense.

So...prayers all around. Don't want to lose faith and I definitely don't wany my parents feeling so bad. Thanks guys.

Dear Jesus,

I agree with MomoP for her parents health. Please heal them both and stop her mother's pain. Also please help MomoP to care and want to know the things that matter to you. And anything else she and her family needs I pray for too.

In your name Jesus,
Amen.

Ur parents and u have my prayers....Just wanted to mention that even if u don't feel anything, that doesn't mean that He's not answering....It's often during the times that we feel far away from Him, when we ask for help and only get silence, that our faith is growing, as we have to rely on our trust in His Strength.....
Keep asking Him for strength and for this passion for Him that u want, but remember that He doesn't want u to rely on a feeling, He wants u to rely on Him, even when u can't feel Him.

It's hard, I know, cause I used to be (and still am) a very feelings motivated type of person. But in the end, He works it all for our good and benefit. Feelings come and go. But our Savior never leaves.....Hope u found this encouraging......

Thanks for the prayers guys. My dad seems to be doing quite a bit better, but only God knows when my mom's kidney stone will finally go away.

As for my faith...it has its ups and downs...though more downs than ups sadly. Need more passion and yearning to be like Him and with Him. On the upside though, I have been having some dreams I do think are pretty positive. While they creep the heck out of me, I've had two dreams where, in one, my parents got really weird and were trying to make me go to other gods for help (which I refused to do, so I suppose that's a good sign) and in the other...the devil was actually there. While I didn't kill him or something, I do believe I ended up like...locking him out or locking him up somewhere.

Again, weird junk because it's dreams, but I also assume standing up for God, even while asleep, is a very good sign.