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I have been having very troubling thoughts lately. I have been thinking to myself "I am ready to go. I am ready to leave this world." I have only been like this once before and it was scary then too. What can I do to stop these thoughts and the urge to hasten this leaving? I am truely mortified at this situation myself, but cant stop thinking those things. Please pray and help?

I understand these feelings,and how hard it is to control them.I never really stopped them until someone opened my eyes to how much the world needs God's light.It made me relize that the world needed Christains to shine His light,and how precious life is.The point is,don't let the devil trick you into thinking 'you're not need here' or anything like that,because people need Christains like us :3 God loves you,even in the extremly hard times,when you feel there is no more left.

I will pray for you :3 Jesus loves you :3

Hey Roxas,

I think there times when a lot of people think it woudl be better to just "leave" Heaven is going to be awesome...

However, that isn't what God wants for you. To just leave before its time... He gave us life! He put us here for a purpose...and that purpose isn't to die prematurely. ^_^ Just remember how much God loves you. These thoughts are scary to be sure. And it's obvious you don't like thinking them. So it must mean you don't really want it.

Pray and ask God to purify your thoughts. Delve deeply into his word, so that you can know and understand fully his love, and his purpose for you... Because he certainly has big plans for you! ^^ He's got big plans for all of us...

I'll definately be praying! Don't worry about troubling thoughts. sometimes they just enter our minds for no reason... just give them to God!

i'm praying for you. i get these thoughts as well.
i understand and you are in my prayers.

[font="palatino Linotype"]Aw, Rox-san...

I'll be praying my hardest, mmkays?
You can talk to me ANYTIME you need to, okay?

I'm always on YIM, so, yeah. ^_^
I've dealt (and am dealing with) these thoughts, so I completely understand.

Love ya,
Hana~[/font]

You have my prayers Roxas ^^

May I ask what has you thinking/feeling this way? Maybe if you recognize why you're feeling this way you can defeat it ^ ^ Yeah, perhaps that was a bit easier said then done, but try it. If you know what's bugging you then you can take care of it ^^

We're all here to help, so when you discover whatever it is.. let us know so we can help you ^ ^

Hey, Roxas... I know that when you have these thoughts, it can be very upsetting... but when they start badgering you... is there anything that you can do to escape the oppression that these thoughts bring? talking to a friend, listening to some uplifting music, reading the Bible? All of those things can lift you out of a bad mood, as long as you open your heart to God and let Him come in and reveal His joy to you. I'll be praying for you to have a breakthrough...

Jess

I'd like to pray and help, but first, are you feeling this way because you're depressed?

That and I am sevierly lonely. I have been having troubles with moving plans(they are always changing) and it has been greatly effecting my social life(if I have one).

I know how much the loneliness sucks. It's been one of my major problems my whole life. I'm usually around if you want to talk to someone.

I guess I'm still finding it hard to understand. Forgive me for sounding dumb, but is it solely the lonliness that makes you want to die? I mean, I've heard of Christians stating that they would be perfectly happy to just die and go to heaven, but that didn't mean they were suicidal. And if it's just lonliness that is bugging you, I think you may have misdiagnosed your problem.

its not just the lonelyness, but the fact that I never know when or if I am going to move and it is very stressfull. I am rapidly loosing friends that I have had for years. It feels like my life is slowly falling apart.

Woah... That sounds horrible. I can imagine thinking those thoughts myself if I started rapidly losing friends I've had for years. I wish I could, but unfortunately, I can't offer any advice beyong seeking satisfaction in the Lord. If you search my threads you'll see the encouraging word thread that points out David finding comfort in the Lord in much much worse circumstances than yours. Believe that. Spend a lot of time in prayer and reading over that passage. I think that will help you.

I will try that, but things are out of control right now. I just wrote a letter to a "friend" who got mad at me for sending a letter to a good friend of mine telling her how I felt. In this most recent letter(which I am sending out soon) I told this "friend" that she had no right to be mad at me and it is I that should and am mad. She talked with me on the phone last night and said, "Roxas, I kissed you for goodness sake!" I wrote to her saying, "Big woop! You have kissed so many other guys(and 2 right in front of me) that it holds no water with me weather or not you kissed me. I truely loved you and all you could do was give a puppy love in return. When you can honestly and truely say that you loved me, then all will be right, but know that I will never speak with you again, no matter the outcome. I have risin above you small mindedness and supressive attitude." I have no idea how she will respond. This whole thing is just eating me up inside and the thoughts of wanting to die are getting worse. I just want a flesh and blood friend whom I can hang out with......

And now, on top of all of that, I met this extreamly CUTE guy at church and it is tearing me up! I just want to die!

Praying for you!

Aaw, Roxas, I'm so sorry!

Even though I may have no idea what you're going through I'll pray for you. And I would just like to remind you that Jesus has suffered every temptation we have in His life, He knows how you feel and loves you so much!