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im having a really hard time. i feel like lust and anger has slowly taken control of my life. my heart feels caliced and blocked from God. I belief in him but i seem to put other things before him.

i recently went through a tough time with this girl and i just have so much hate and rage about that. i cant seem to get over my intense rage. i find myself swearing and being a jerk to every one around me. im sure if somebody saw me like this they wouldnt belief that i was a christian.

Also i am having a very hard time with lust. it has been a stuggle for me more and more as i mature and i have come to the realization that lust is my bigest vice. every day i slip farther and farther into it. even when i say sorry it is just a pain killer to make myself feel better and 5 min. later i will find myself doing it again. i know God wants me to stop and i want to but a part of me doesnt.

please pray and give me advise on getting back on the right path...

hxckid,

I know from personal experience how damaging both lust and rage can be... they certainly will take over everything if you do not turn to God and let Him be your strength and support. Personally, I think it would be good to go to God and just confess. We know that He knows all we have done, but... at times we hide that truth from ourselves...
Go prostrate before Him and open up... let the floodgates burst forth and let Him into those scarred and broken places in your heart. He is the only one that can fill them.
You have my prayers and my friendship... if you need to talk, I'm here.

Jess (Nekochan)

I second what NekoChan said.....There was a time where I used to struggle with lust and it wasn't untill I confessed and gave it all to God that I slowly began to conquer it....night by night, then month by month......

I'm still human and I know that I'll make mistakes, but I now know that through Christ I am free....U can be free too....

U have my prayers.....

I'm so sorry I missed this. I don't know how it got passed me. Anyway, I'm sorry you had to go through what you did. I'll pray about your anger (I hope it's down by now), and also that you'll overcome your lust problems. Here's what I said to another member. http://christiananime.net/showthread.php?t=49284 Read my first post, I think you may find it helpful.

Oh. My. I think I understand a bit of what you are going through. Temptations can be so rough. You have my prayers for sure. But the thing that I've learned is that God is with you through everything. Even in your darkest time. When you choose to slip away. So keep that in mind and know that God loves you and wants to help you.

I'll be praying for you!

PolarHeat (Alexandra)

thank you all for your prayers. i think God is showing me my problems more and more and how to deal with him. i found its all just giving it to him and surrendering. thank you all.