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Hey guys,

I know you have all seen me post on this multiple times. *Sigh I wish I could put more happy stuff on here.

I'm dealing with my depression. I realize that I am clinically depressed. Which is other words, chemical depression. I have been fighting for so long to just beat this without meds. but I can't anymore. I fight suicide and depression EVERY SINGLE DAY! I just can't fight it anymore without some help. I have prayed, which God has given me help but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try meds either. I just can't afford to see a psychologist right now and meds, but I'm praying God will be able to help me with that.

I also am having nightmares of my past abuse. It makes me have a hard time sleeping. I also am having anxiety attacks.

I am breaking down emotionally all the time. Crying, raging, snapping at my loved ones........I want help and I can't get any! It makes me feel like this: :bang::bang::bang::bang:

Please pray. I know some of these emotions will pass. They always do. I still have my trust and faith in the Lord. But I am still healing and healing oftentimes involves pain. I just need strength.

I also got drunk last night and I rarely rarely do. Part of me did so I think I did so due to just an escape from the pain....please pray that my fiancee matt is able to have strength through this as well. It is hard on him also.

Thankyou

Kelly

[font="palatino Linotype"]*hugs VERY tightly*

Sis, I will be praying SO hard for you, okay??

You know that you can talk to me ANYTIME, right?
*nods*

May God bless you.[/font]

*Hugs* You have my prayers.

You shouldn't turn to drinking.. Not even for a temporary escape. It'll still be there I kinda think it'll make it even worse o.o

*Is praying for the both of you* ^ ^

I'm praying, too... if meds will help you to control the symptoms of this depression, then I pray that God will provide a way for you to get them...

However, in the interim, have you considered using natural supplements (such as Valerian, Omega-3, Ginseng, etc) to help with the depression? I was having symptoms of cyclothymia for a long time and I found a ton of stuff on the web that you can use naturally to regulate your brains chemicals... of course, all this *should* be done under a doctor's care... but if you are poor like me, you sometimes end up self-diagnosing... anyways, some easy things you can do to regulate your body are a) getting 8 hours sleep each night, b) eating properly, with plenty of water, and a GOOD multi-vitamin; and c) 20-30 minutes of exercise daily.
These things seem overly simple, but you would be surprised what a real difference they make!

Hang in there... it will get better and God will strengthen you as you lean on Him.

Neko

Kelly. Man will I be praying for you. It's nice that you able to finally confess this to yourself as well as to other people. The first part is admitting it. And you have just done that. Now. I'm not good at this myself. But look to God for help because he knows where you are. And he is waiting to help you. He just wants to see if you will make the same effort that he would.

I'm here if you want to chat.

I'll be praying for you.

God bless and Love

PolarHeat (Alexandra)

I'll be praying for you Kelly.

trying to find psychiatrist....no go..please pray am getting desperate for help

Kunoichi (post: 1243589) wrote:Hey guys,

I know you have all seen me post on this multiple times. *Sigh I wish I could put more happy stuff on here.

I'm dealing with my depression. I realize that I am clinically depressed. Which is other words, chemical depression. I have been fighting for so long to just beat this without meds. but I can't anymore. I fight suicide and depression EVERY SINGLE DAY! I just can't fight it anymore without some help. I have prayed, which God has given me help but that doesn't mean I shouldn't try meds either. I just can't afford to see a psychologist right now and meds, but I'm praying God will be able to help me with that.

I also am having nightmares of my past abuse. It makes me have a hard time sleeping. I also am having anxiety attacks.

I am breaking down emotionally all the time. Crying, raging, snapping at my loved ones........I want help and I can't get any! It makes me feel like this: :bang::bang::bang::bang:

Please pray. I know some of these emotions will pass. They always do. I still have my trust and faith in the Lord. But I am still healing and healing oftentimes involves pain. I just need strength.

I also got drunk last night and I rarely rarely do. Part of me did so I think I did so due to just an escape from the pain....please pray that my fiancee matt is able to have strength through this as well. It is hard on him also.

Thankyou

Kelly

At the very least, you still have someone you can love. Unlike me, who has nothing, no money, no friends, no job (in school). I may also be clinically depressed, but I just don't think about it too much. It maybe health related problem, as I often felt as if something is sitting on my chest. Anyway, hope you can overcome the problem.

I only have 6 months of school left, whether I will live or be dead by the end, it is up to God's will for I have done everything I can.

I'm so sorry I didn't post here sooner. I'm so so sorry that you're not getting better, Kunoichi. As always you're in my prayers. I wish I could offer some real advice to remedy your depression, but there's only so much us internet acquaintances can do. Perhaps dwelling on your boyfriend's salvation will help, however little.

well I'm really diving into the Lord! That is the most important thing. God is really blessing me as well! Altho my situation has not changed, the more I dive into his Word..the more healing that I feel

I'm currently going through a devotional that is really helping me and I think it would help you also.
It's called Lord, I Want to Be Whole by Stormie Omartian --I'm going through the journal--and man, it's made me face my past (which I try to block out mostly) and allow God to begin to heal it.
You can find it here: Link

I'm still praying for you, my friend. *hugs*

your in my prayrs sister

I'll be praying for you.

I hope your situation improves.

"But he was pierced for our transgressions, he was crushed for our iniquities; the punishment that brought us peace was upon him, and by his wounds we are healed." - Isaiah 53:5

I'm praying for you and SnEptUne and Sheenar and everyone. If you need meds I pray you find them. Anti-depressants were one of the instruments God used in my life to keep me alive until I finally read His Word. Just don't use them without a doctor. For instance I sometimes tried to get off meds by myself and I could barely walk soon after. Also, a cousin of mine died from self-medication. But it looks like you're going about this the right way - I just pray you get help soon.

And once again, I'm so happy to hear about Matt's salvation!