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It seems like I've only been making posts here lately asking for prayer and not too many praises (even though God has immensely blessed me.)
I started summer school last Friday and the hectic schedule hit me hard this evening. I got home around 7, did a few things, and then sat down. When I got up to make dinner around 8, all the walking around campus/the hectic schedule hit me. My whole body hurts and I feel completely exhausted. I really need a shower, but I don't think I can stand long enough --so I'll just change, go to bed, and shower in the morning before my class at 8 a.m.
I'm starting to wonder what I got myself into. Man, the only way I'll make it through the summer is through God's strength!

Also, I've been really convicted lately about my cursing. When I get angry, upset, or even when I'm not feeling strong emotion, the words come out. My old self keeps popping up in this way (and in others...). I ask you all to help keep me accountable in this. I'm going to sincerely commit myself to break this habit and to honor God with the words that come out of my mouth. Also, if anyone has any advice or a story about God helping them overcome this struggle, please let me know!

Thank you all for being there for me. I really appreciate it.

Betterthanyou (post: 1227828) wrote:Cursing? Enjoy your stay in hell ololololol

each curse word you say is like a needle in god's eye and when you die he's gonna want some serious revenge, I'd watch out if were you

Watch out yourself.

Betterthanyou (post: 1227828) wrote:Cursing? Enjoy your stay in hell ololololol

each curse word you say is like a needle in god's eye and when you die he's gonna want some serious revenge, I'd watch out if were you

Good thing I'm not emotionally unstable or anything...(which I kind of am given my background). Seriously, I almost started to cry (I'm tired, I made my sandwich on a wet plate so the bread got soggy, etc.)Remember that words can and do hurt others. Please think of this before you post.

BetterThanThou - please, kiddo... you give trolls a bad name and your ignorance is rather embarrassing. The goof off is next door. The first grade is the door after that. The office of employment for Temuoplitan peons elligible to scrub a toilet is even further. I'd try there.

Sheenar-chan, don't beat yourself up too hard - a willingness and desire to break a bad habit like that is the most important step and shows where your heart is at. You're definitely not alone in it - Peter didn't exactly have a clean mouth either. XD We all have our issues and sometimes the hardest thing to do is trust in God to grow us and change us in His own time. I'll be praying that life gives ya a break and all goes well.

Your comrade in Christ,
-Temulin

umm....BetterthanYou that was just mean.... *shoots arrow towards troll* Go away now. please.

Anyways, Sheenar, no worries there was a stretch that I felt like I was being the only one posting for prayer....XD I'll pray for you and talking about cursing, I'm trying to curb that habit myself....*thumbs up* so God will help the both of us, k? and if you are ever feeling down, then remember:

The LORD is our REFUGE and STRENGTH, an EVER-PRESENT HELP in times of TROUBLE - Psalm 46:1
**I use this verse so much on here I'm considering putting it into my signature...O.o**

Ok, need to vent:
Why can't I seem to catch a break? This is too much all at once. I can't handle it. My health problems, school, the stuff with my Mom, not being able to see my aunt and cousins, struggling with my sin, struggling with feelings for a guy and trying to sort it out --I can't handle it all. I feel like sitting and crying...I'm so exhausted physically, emotionally, and spiritually--I need God desperately because I am hopelessly lost without Him.
I know He has a plan --it's just life is so hard. And overwhelming sometimes. God is my only hope of making it through. I'm at the point where all I can do is cry out to God and then try to take it one day at a time...God gives me enough strength for one day at a time...I just need to remember not to try to take on several days at once...

I want to thank you for your kind words USSRGirl. I really appreciate it. Thank you for your encouragement.

Well, I do have work for school to do, but I finished what's due tomorrow so I'm going to go to bed early--my body and emotions are just yearning for rest.
Thank you for your prayers.

Edited out...so troll's statements go away...

Be praying hard...

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Sheenar. Just report this Betterthanyou jerk to the mods... he is REALLY MAKING ME ANGRY....I don't usually act this annoyed online but.... GEEZ!!!

Betterthanyou (post: 1227892) wrote:**** you animewarrior, I pray really ****ing hard, REALLY HARD MAN. REALLY. ****ING. HARD.

DEAR SATAN PLZ MAKE EVERYONE ON THIS BOARD'S LIFE WORSE AND MISERABLER MKAY? I'LL SUCK YOU OFF IF YOU DO AND I KNOW YOU LOVE THAT CUS I HAVE A REALLY CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY SAVIOUR.

why YOU!

I have...now it's just a matter of time.

Thank you so much for your encouragement, animewarrior. Let's keep each other accountable. Also, thanks for sticking up for me --I often feel like I can't stick up for myself. So thank you. *hugs*

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Sheenar, u have my prayers.....

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Betterthanyou (post: 1227892) wrote:**** you animewarrior, I pray really ****ing hard, REALLY HARD MAN. REALLY. ****ING. HARD.

DEAR SATAN PLZ MAKE EVERYONE ON THIS BOARD'S LIFE WORSE AND MISERABLER MKAY? I'LL SUCK YOU OFF IF YOU DO AND I KNOW YOU LOVE THAT CUS I HAVE A REALLY CLOSE RELATIONSHIP WITH MY SAVIOUR.

YOU!!!! *curses at wall* I'm NOT INTERESTED IN WHAT YOUR SAVIOUR HAS TO OFFER!!!.... I"VE BEEN THERE>.... NOT HAPPENING AGAIN.

Ah trolls, the bread and butter of the rancid underbelly of the Internet.

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No problem, Sheenar, I've been there. Sometimes you just gotta cry your heart out to God and let it all out so you can heal. We all go through those times where it seems like things just keep piling up. But always remember that whenever you feel as if you've reached your limit, God has a way and a door and a plan for you that He will see you through in His own time. It's hard not to curse and get angry and even the best of us have done it, as in Peter's case. I'm sorry you had to go through all that - I'm definitely blessed in my family life, but I also never had a relationship with my "mom." I don't know what your situation is, but I'll be praying God will you see you through all of it. My advice would be to cry if you feel like crying and pray as prayer has actually been scientificly proven to reduce stress. Also, prayer is a two-way conversation - sometimes it can just mean listening and waiting to hear what God has to say while we try to quiet our own voice that wants to rattle off a list of complaints. Anyways, praying for ya.

"Be gracious to me, O God, for man has trampled upon me;
Fighting all day long he oppresses me.
My foes have trampled upon me all day long,
For they are many who fight proudly against me.
When I am afraid,
I will put my trust in You.
In God, whose word I praise,
In God I have put my trust;
I shall not be afraid
What can mere man do to me?
All day long they distort my words;
All their thoughts are against me for evil.
They attack, they lurk,
They watch my steps,
As they have waited to take my life.
Because of wickedness, cast them forth,
In anger put down the peoples, O God!
You have taken account of my wanderings;
Put my tears in Your bottle
Are they not in Your book?
Then my enemies will turn back in the day when I call;
This I know, that God is for me.
In God, whose word I praise,
In the LORD, whose word I praise,
In God I have put my trust, I shall not be afraid.
What can man do to me?
Your vows are binding upon me, O God;
I will render thank offerings to You.
For You have delivered my soul from death,
Indeed my feet from stumbling,
So that I may walk before God
In the light of the living." Psalm 56 (I love this Psalm, and I thought it was a good one to remember in rough times)

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"Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven." Matthew 6:1

Similarly, what reward is there to accept God because of fear of hell?

But regarding the problem of cursing, the best way to break habit is to change living style. However, we are often not free to do so as we wish. Life can be stressful, but take it easy. Word has power, cursing may make life seems more stressful than it really is. Instead, sit back and take a rest.

If your schedule is too hectic, is it possible to reduce courses? Although stress can be helpful in some situations, it is important to know how much one can handle. I sometimes don't have time to take shower too, but is it that bad to not take one now and then? There are people who organize their days into rigid time slots, but we are human, not machine. That being said, one of the most important aspect of post secondary education isn't talent, but time management skills, which can take years to mature depending on the person.

<snip>By the way, I'm praying for you Sheenar.

Just brush off what guy said because it is obvious that he is odious and has no life what-so-ever.

Sigh* i pray for these trolls..afterall human as well

Sheenar,

first of all *hugs i have heard those screams before my sister. I have said those screams of anger, of the whys, of the wish for a break.

my sister, sometimes there are periods where God is strengthening us through hard trials. For what he has planned, its possible God has things planned where what your going through now will help you to be the person the Lord wants you to be in the future.

*hugs sis, hang in there!

A quick reminder before we put this thread back on track:

http://www.christiananime.net/showthread.php?t=27550

Continue. XD

I know I should have ignored him...it's just I felt so angry and upset at what he said that I responded to him. Guess that was what the troll was looking for. I'm sorry for feeding the troll. I really knew better--he just got me.

Anyway, I feel a little better now that I've slept. I have to get ready for class--at 8:00. It's almost 7 now. I really don't want to go, but this is a minimester, so I have to. The class isn't actually bad--it's a pretty simple one actually, it's just doing class for 4 hours a day and then working for 4 after lunch--then doing homework and try to be in bed by 10 or 11 is hard.

I'm taking the minimum amount of classes that I can --any less and my financial aid goes away. So pretty much all summer, my days will start at 8 and end at 5 and then I'll go home and do homework. But, 2 of my classes during the summer are half-session, so after they're over, I'll have only 1 class in each session. (I'm taking 2 classes Summer 1 and 2 during Summer 2). I think if I stick to a strict sleeping schedule and manage my time well, I should be ok with God's help. Which means I probably won't be around here during the week...

Thank you for your encouraging words, everyone! I really appreciate it. Now I have to go get ready...(only 3 more days until the weekend!!)

I will be praying as well.

Radical Dreamer (post: 1227970) wrote:A quick reminder before we put this thread back on track:

http://www.christiananime.net/showthread.php?t=27550

Continue. XD

XD I linked to that thread in the chat to try to get some people to calm down, but it didn't work.


Praying for you Sheenar. =)

Sheenar (post: 1227816) wrote:It seems like I've only been making posts here lately asking for prayer and not too many praises (even though God has immensely blessed me.)

Asking for prayer from your fellow children of God is exactly the same thing as praising God with them. It is nothing less than saying "I have faith in my Lord, and I have faith in you." Ask away.

Sheenar (post: 1227816) wrote:Also, I've been really convicted lately about my cursing. When I get angry, upset, or even when I'm not feeling strong emotion, the words come out.

You have my sympathies, and my honest confession that I share this problem with you. Even in front of my children from time to time... I've managed to purge the F word from my vocabulary, so I'm making progress, but I've got a ways to go. I've said a prayer for you, perhaps you can offer one for me!

praying for you!...
where on earth did you get those posts? I havent seen them around, and who would say such things, just ignore him Sheenar...GOD love you no matter what!

12praiseGOD (post: 1228096) wrote:praying for you!...
where on earth did you get those posts? I havent seen them around, and who would say such things, just ignore him Sheenar...GOD love you no matter what!

Just a note, I went through and deleted the quotes (the original responses were deleted a day ago) and a few of the responses; sometimes entire posts that regarded the troll. Nothing personal, I'm just trying to keep the thread on track. XD

And praying for you, Sheenar!

I'll be praying for you as well, Sheenar ^^ Don't be so harsh on yourself.. alright ^__^

Thank you all for your prayers...it really means a lot.

I feel a little depressed tonight. Not completely sure why. Maybe I'm just tired...and for some reason, I've been thinking about my mom and stuff that happened...and this morning I was crying because I started thinking about my aunt and I really miss her--I want to see her so badly--she lives less than 15 minutes away...

I'd better go to bed. I'm sure I'll feel a bit better after some good sleep.

And I think I may have made it through the day without cursing (maybe--I don't remember actually...)