Today I got a letter from my youth pastor.
In brief, it said that my youth group is organizing a leadership team among the student body. It's a little complicated, but in short, our youth leader is moving to China at some point this year and wants to equip the more "spiritually mature" among us to be leaders in the present or in the future.
And apparently, I'm one of the more spiritually mature.
The letter was sent to 13 people in the youth group and he wants all of us to participate in some kind of leadership training once a month, plus assignments in between.
I.... Am starting to feel like he made a mistake on this one. Just because I help with every event there is, doesn't mean I'm spiritually mature. I'm NOT. But I know he probably gave considerable prayer as to who to send these letters to, in which case it isn't his decision, and is therefore not mine to question.
I just don't feel worthy of or ready for this or... aurgh. I'm just confused about the whole thing. I'm sure I'll participate, but I need prayers to... not screw it up, and feel coinfidence about the whole thing, and yada yada yada.