CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

People here know that I've been suicidal.

Well I actually made an attempt this morning.

I intentionally overdosed on vicodin. Took 6 at once. If I hadn't run out, I would've done more than that.

I'm still very groggy.

I don't know how I'm still alive right now.

Oh my...wow. I don't know what you're facing, but I'll definitely say a prayer for you. The fact you're alive seems like a huge sign to me, clearly God said it's not your time to go.

Praise Jesus that you're still alive! The fact that you are alive shows that your life is extremely valuable to God.
I know that in my struggle with being suicidal in the past, meeting with a Christian counselor helped immensely. Perhaps that may help you find some guidance?
I don't know what else to say except to say that God has a plan for your life. You are His child, His creation. He loves you. There is a purpose for your life.

I'll be praying for you friend. Again, praise God you are alive.

Hey Beau,

Well God gave you this chance to live, and apparently, he has a bigger plan than you and I could imagine, or else you would be dead.

Been suicidal many times and well, almost killed myself a few times when things "Just happened" to intervene.

I'll pray for you my friend.

Satan is trying hard on you, don't give up!

God loves you, you may not feel it but he does.

Be safe brother.

I'm praying for you. I don't know exactly what you are going through, but if you need someone to talk to, just send a PM my way. I know from my own depression and anxiety, how it feels, so maybe I can relate in some ways. I will respond as soon as possible. Please talk with someone if you are still feeling suicidal.

As it's been said. Thank God you're alive! And just as Hidden said, if you need anyone to talk to, feel free to shoot me a PM.
I don't know what He has in store for you, but it must be something great. I'll be praying for you, friend. If you need me, I'm here. I've been severely suicidal myself a few times, I know how badly it hurts, and how hard it is to continue. And while I can't claim I know what you're going through, I can at least relate.
Praying for you. Be safe, okay?

Like everyone else, I'm just glad you're still with us!

But please, start talking to somebody about this NOW.

I've added you to my IM list Beau. I know my lack of physical presence can't help you very much, and I probably can't do very much for you as when I was in this state, no one could for me. But I hope I can give you what help I can.

Talk to you soon.

Thanks, everyone.

I'm ok now, but it could return.

We're trying to get me an apointment with a psychologist. One who specialises in autism and other things. She may actually be able to diagnose me, so I can have some closure regarding that. Then we'll go from there.

You don't know how much I'm happy to have you not die on us Beau. I am saying this to you as a brother would, and I actually have water in my eyes while saying this:

I do not want to lose you, my brother! We don't want to lose you! OUR LORD GOD does not want to lose you! You have no idea how much we love you! As a brother, I love you! I know that I speak from everyone when I ask you from the bottom of my heart: Do not do that again, please!

Yihoshua has you here for a reason, the reason is yours and yours alone! No one knows except you and HIM!

My friend, my brother, you have no idea how scared I was when I read that. Beau...please...do not do that again!

Again, you are our brother, and we love you!

I pray for you and we all do. God bless my friend...my brother.

Once again, thanks.

I'll say right now, I almost lost conciousness at least twice.

So if I took any more than I did, well... I probably wouldn't be typing this now.

You are a light among those who will try to do the same thing. You can stop them and give them encouragement.

It's the same thing with druggists and alcoholics: Once they're saved, they may have the effects of what has happened to them, but they have more wisdom then you could ever imagine.

It's the same thing with me, I used to drink so much whenever alcohol was in front of me. I told myself after that that I will not be drunk again. I hate the feeling! I HATE IT! I actually had to self-induce throwing up to get rid of the poison and drink water and eat bread all night long.

God bless my friend.

Well, I definately hope that the psychologist is able to help. I'm still praying.

If it gets bad again, just remind yoruself: God DEFFINATELY still wants you here!

I'll be praying that this never occurs again. When you are feeling like this talk to a friend and if that still does't help go and pray, pray till your heart's relief; which GOD can give plenty. Open your heart, let HIM take your load upon HIS shoulder. He loves you, and His great will knows why He made you run out of medicine when you did. GOD bless you, and please know that you are greatly loved, not only by us, but by the greatest, creator, maker, savior, Lord, and King, Jesus Christ. NOw that is a wonderful thing. Again
GOD BLESS YOU, and May He protect you and may you always know that his arms are open wide for you!!!!

I am very glad that God intervened....Know that I am praying for you.....You do it...Cast all ur cares on Him, Beau99...for He cares for you......As do the rest of us......

I'll be praying as well; remember, you're too precious in God's eyes for you to do something like take your own life. "God doesn't make junk!!"

Holy crap man... that's scary.

Dude, I don't want you do do anything like that. =( I'm praying for you bud. Please just don't kill yourself or anything. Keep strong, pray, go towards God, and use every bad instance in your life as an opportunity to go stronger. Bad times can either break you or build you, ya know?