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at a standstill
PostPosted: Tue Sep 18, 2007 8:15 pm
by bakura_fan
I dunno. I guess I've hit a standstill in my life. I just...the more i think about my life the more it depresses me. The stuff that I was aiming for before, I no longer care about. The things I want...no longer hold meaning. I just..kinda...am lost. I want to go away...and dissappear. I've also realized some things. I'm holding onto some things because they're all i've got. Even if they no longer hold meaning for me...These things being, what college degrees and future jobs I want...and CAA. I don't know...but...they just...do nothing for me anymore....
*points to green line in signature* that really hits home right about now.
I'm sorry...I'm..gonna shut up now...
*crawls into dark hole*
PostPosted: Wed Sep 19, 2007 9:06 pm
by ChristianKitsune
Aww, Bakura_fan! D:
I know what it's like, but you know Maybe God has a different idea for you. I truly believe that the changing of our interests could be God changing our hearts toward him. OR maybe you are so unhappy because God is trying to tell you something?
I know I have been there!
always in my prayers!
PostPosted: Thu Sep 20, 2007 5:20 pm
by SP1
Perhaps you are spiritually very hungry. I got this way mid-college, and it took me a while to "find the right people" to drag me out of it. Actually, we sort of drug each other along, I suppose.
Remember to take each day as it comes and keep going. You don't want to spiral down into depression and then fulfill the prophecy by dropping out of classes, etc. I will assume you are praying a lot, because you are on CAA. Find some Christian (or at least well-meaning) folks and go do some volunteer work in the community to recharge yourself and feel closer to God.
Strengthened, you might note that the little annoyances don't matter as much anymore.
Praying.
PostPosted: Thu Sep 20, 2007 9:40 pm
by bakura_fan
well, the thing is I have a job. My husband's the one in college. The thing is...we're trying to find a new place to live, that has a college that will accomadate both of our college needs...but now that I don't know what college stuff I want...it makes it a bit difficult. I dunno. it's weird.
PostPosted: Fri Sep 21, 2007 6:36 pm
by SP1
Oh, sorry, I totally mis-read your situation.
Pray together with your husband and discuss your feelings with him if you haven't already. It should help.