Lately, as you can tell from my many posts, I have been in this rare constant thinking mood. Just been... thinking about many things: logics, behavior of people, and continuously asking questions and wondering "how/why is this?" I want to understand people more, understand their beliefs and why/how they think what they do. Why do other ideas appeal so much more? I know people just simply state "oh it's sin/satan attacking", but people can be so complex that there's always more to it. I want to try and understand them more, because how can they walk in your shoes when you haven't tried to walk in their own? I'm wanting to know and understand more, to avoid ignorance/arrogance. Although my mind is constantly thinking, some people probably think I do that with my own beliefs. I just want to... see things from different angles, another perspective, and above all: try and understand Him more, and His logics and reasonings for different things and ruling.
When I became Christian, I didn't know much about any belief period and when I knew Him, something just clicked without this whole studying/trying to understand period. Call this going "backwards" if you will, but I want to know more about just... beliefs and people in general and add my thoughts into general writing pieces. I guess CS Lewis is a bit of an influence with that, since I'm a writer and after watching his biography on the Narnia special ed. Just amazing HOW many writings he made, and he turned out to be one influential person with them! I just hope that I won't sound irrational, although many times people think negatively on my thoughts... It IS only thinking, wondering, pondering, afterall. Although I wish to do it properly, in hopes that maybe one day I can help inspire people one day, but in anything but blasphemously.
This'll probably take many years, (or however long I'll be in this deep thinking mode^^) so prayer for all of this and strength especially: to look from another point of view can be tricky and can involve slight wavering sometimes... So yeah just prayer for it all would be great^^ I'm happy already that through my topics, I've had several different PMs with different thoughts, ideas and everything. I just really want to get people thinking, and hopefully for the best^^ Not to aim for "hey us Christians ARE right!" but almost view from a 3rd person's view...