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I'm not sure where to post this, if a mod feels that it needs to be moved please move this. Ok. Here's the story. When I was 16, my best friend died in a car accident. http://www.angelfire.com/falcon/viet_scouty/news2.html (scroll to "teen killed....")
Now, I know it's been three years. . . .but. . . I still can't get over her death. Is it because I moved to a different state and didn't attend her funeral? Is it because I cannot forgive the driver (who I knew from school before I moved)(if you want the in depth story, pm me). Is it because I feel guily over cheating in my homeschooling, thus making me have to redo alot and missing the chance to see her one more time (she was supposed to come and visit us. . .but she couldn't cause I cheated.). I just don't know what to do anymore. I try to forget about her, but then it hurts too much. How can I handle this? Also, her mom who was my mom's best friend just dad last year (she had been living off of 1/10 of her lung capacity. finaly took it's toll). So now the father has lost his youngest daughter and wife. I'm sorry to be going on about this. . But, do any of you have suggestions as to what I can do? Her family's Christian, so I know where she is, but I knew her since first grade. and it just hurts to know that I can't see her again.

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Now, having that said. It is hard when things happen in life. Deaths, accidents, anything. It is so easy to look at things, and blame ourselves for things. But whats done is done. God is in control, and you must move on. The person you cared about that is no longer with us, would not want you to spend all your time upset about there passing. They would want you to be happy, and move on. Rather then spend time blaming yourself for things that despite what you think...if it was that persons time to go, it was. Regardless of your actions. But rather then spend time blaming yourself for somthing, maybe devote time to a cause that would help prevent future things. Like where speed was a factor, getting into a group that teaches youngpeople about safe driving or somthing. All of that said, pray about it. Pray that God gives you peace over the matter...and that God helps you forgive those involved.

I guess I just want to stop crying evertytime I think about her. and I guess now I want to tell the other girl that I forgive her. but last I heard she got sent to some facility for trying to commit suicide once she got out of the hospital. so now I don't know what to do.

Maybe you could write her a note. Even if you don't send it, it might help to get some of your feelings out.

Also, is there someone you can talk to, maybe a pastor, parent, or counselor? We can and will pray for you, but it might help as well if you have someone to talk all of this over with in person.