I'm cracking

Postby **KBMaster** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 8:09 am

I don't like to post selfish prayer requests, but I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. I also don't like to divulge certain things, but I think I'll make an exceptiont this time. I Allow me to elaborate.

Three of the people in my household work full time. One's my mom, one's my older sister, and the other is my father who is constantly doped up on pain pills. He's the one I have to spend my nights with because my sister usually works nights and my mom always works nights. He's home at night, but I might as well be taking care of my two brothers by myself. His parenting skills suck. When my brothers are fighting, he doesn't help me unless I ask for help and then he just says "That's enough" or tries to tell them funny stories(which makes them even madder).

He comes home, goes on the computer, then goes to bed at eight o clock. So we have to be extra quiet or he gets mad. Then at about nine he gets up and goes on the computer again. I make dinner every night. I clean the house every night. I cry nearly every night. I have to put on a brave face for my brothers so that they don't get upset. They're only 11 and 12. The older one is being taught defiance by his father and I think he knows how upset me, my mom, and my sister are by my dad's idiocy. So he's been rebelling and defiant.

I'm home all day on the weekends with them. I am, essentially, a single mom. My only alleviation is the nights my mom and sister are home, and that's not many. I don't mind the cooking. I don't mind the cleaning.

What bugs me is the fact that my dad is doped up, says the stupidest things sometimes and doesn't help me at all. He may as well not even be here. That would make my life easier if he weren't. And I feel like an awful person for not wanting him to be here. I mean, he is my dad after all.

Also... I'm lonely. My only friend is in England. I have no one to talk to. That makes it... a lot harder on me.

So, uhm, if you could just pray that things would get easier for my family... and that we would find an answer... and that i could handle things better... that would be great. Sorry for the long post.

Postby **Jingo Jaden** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 9:00 am

In my prayer.

Postby **FarmGirl** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 9:06 am

Keep your knees on the floor and your nose in the Word, amiga. It will get better; we're praying for you.

Postby **Radical Dreamer** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 10:00 am

Oh wow, that is NOT a selfish prayer request. That sounds so hard; I'll definitely be praying for you.

Postby **ICE-rocks** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 10:01 am

I'm praying for you.

Postby **Tenshi no Ai** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 10:38 am

I'll be praying for you and your family as well...

Postby **freerock1** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 12:46 pm

Lifting you and your family up to the Father in prayer.

Postby **oro!** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 6:12 pm

KBMaster, we are supposed to lift each other up in prayer. If we never knew about this, how we help you at all? I may not know you, but I am praying for you now. What you're going through sounds so tough.

2 Chronicles 4:11
Then Asa called to the LORD his God and said, "LORD, there is no one like you to help the powerless against the mighty. Help us, O LORD our God, for we rely on you, and in your name we have come against this vast army. O LORD, you are our God; do not let man prevail against you."

1 John 4:16
And so we know and rely on the love God has for us. God is love. Whoever lives in love lives in God, and God in him.

Hey, if you want another friend, I'm game. Just pm me.

Postby **narutofreak** » Sat Jan 20, 2007 7:00 pm

I feel for you. What you are going through sounds really tough. I will be praying for you! Also, I too last year was very lonely, if you need a friend, you can pm me

Postby **KBMaster** » Sun Jan 21, 2007 12:23 pm

Thank you so much, everyone. I feel really encouraged by your words and prayers. ^__^

Oro, thanks so much for the verses. I'll have to write them down and put them by my bed.

Postby **oro!** » Sun Jan 21, 2007 5:02 pm

You're welcome, and I'll continue praying for you.

Postby **Ryupower** » Tue Feb 06, 2007 8:05 pm

I will surely pray. If you want we can IM some time. ^^

Postby **Denimcat** » Tue Feb 06, 2007 9:43 pm

Praying for you, and hey, if you wanna talk to someone online, I'm here.

Postby **KBMaster** » Sat Apr 28, 2007 5:54 pm

I want to thank all of you once again for your prayers. I know sometimes God says "wait" and I think that's what He said this time. My dad got off his pills once, and things got a little better, but then he got on them again. I got depressed again. He hasn't been on them recently, for like, a month. I think he's off them this time. Hopefully for good. I still don't trust him a bit, but our relationship has gotten better, and hopefully will continue to improve. God works in mysterious, yet wonderful ways.

Postby **rsnumber2** » Sat Apr 28, 2007 8:07 pm

Praise God that things are improving. I will pray that they continue to improve, too.

Postby **ich1990** » Sat Apr 28, 2007 9:09 pm

Ill be praying too.

Postby **fairyprincess90** » Tue May 01, 2007 12:07 pm

dont worry i'm the sane way about the whole dont want to be selfish thing. your not selfish. if you need prayer ask for it.
you are in my prayers. i hope everything clears up for ya.
-fp

Postby **Doubleshadow** » Tue May 01, 2007 12:27 pm

I'll keep praying for you all.

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