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My friend has a lot of voices - voices of other people, voices of the enemy, voices inside herself - that are telling her lots of horrible things about herself right now. Please pray that she won't listen to them. Pray that those voices will be silenced. Pray that she'll see how much God loves her and that she'll see herself as He sees her. Pray that she'll be able to hear His voice, because she desperately wants Him to speak to her and she doesn't feel like He is. Pray that she'll be strong and very courageous.

Yesterday, she asked me to promise that I wouldn't take what I know about her and just walk away, and I did. I asked her to promise that she wouldn't run away and hide from me like we both know her tendencies will try to lead her to do, and she did. Pray that we'll both keep our promises. Pray that God will give me the right things to say and do and not let her down.

I assume by "hearing voices" you don't mean that literally. Because if she really is, and can't distinguish them from normal conversations, then she needs psychological help right away, especially if they are encouraging self-destruction, violence, etc. Praying. Good that you are standing by her.

SP1 wrote:I assume by "hearing voices" you don't mean that literally. Because if she really is, and can't distinguish them from normal conversations, then she needs psychological help right away, especially if they are encouraging self-destruction, violence, etc. Praying. Good that you are standing by her.

No, not literally. I'm sorry, I should have been more clear. I just mean some people are telling her hateful lies about her, and she's dealing with a lot of feelings from her own sin nature and the enemy that make her feel bad about herself in ways and for reasons she shouldn't.

Hmmm. It looks like I screwed up.

My friend was having a bit of a rough time last night, and I told several other people we know who were online at the time about it and asked them to pray without getting her permission first. It was thoughtless of me, and it hurt her feelings. It's only made it harder for her to trust and open up to me. We've talked about it, and I've apologized, and she forgives me, but it's going to take a little time for this to heal. We both want things to go back to the way they were, but it looks like we're going to have to work through this slowly.

I'm trying not to beat myself up over it, because she says that will hurt her worse, but I really do feel pretty bad. I just wanted people to pray so she'd feel better and I never stopped to consider her privacy.

Please pray that the pain I caused her will heal, and that I don't torture myself for this and won't mess up again. I don't know why God let me make this mistake unless it was to test the two of us and teach us something.

Ya know, sometimes it seems like the closer a relationship gets, the tough it is to maintain. :-P It's worth it, though, and I guess it's valuable "practice" for the future, like marriage or something.

And that actually brings me to one final prayer request for right now. I'm sort of hesitant to bring it up, but it's probably better all-around if I face it.

I think I'm now closer to this girl than I've ever been to anybody outside my family in my life. Please pray that I won't get emotionally involved in a way I shouldn't and hurt both of us. I mean, we've promised not to abandon each other, we've frankly discussed each other (and other friends, mind you) being the type of people we'd like to marry someday...yeah. But I'm 19 and she's 17 and even if it were God's will that we end up together down the road (which would be awesome), there's no need for either of us to be thinking about that now.

Ya know, I'm probably boring you all with this drama, so maybe I should give it a rest.

It certainly is a drama (it's interesting how we enjoy watching them on TV, but reality sure does have enough on its own). I have been, and will continue to pray for you, her, and the situation overall...