CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

Well guys sorry I havent been around much this summer (computer and all); but now Im back (hopefully to stay). Well a lot has happened to me so Im gonna try to get all of this in one go so I hope I dont forget anything.

First off At the beggining of the summer I had officially hit the lowest point of my life ive ever been in. I was looking for getting a degree in electronics engineering; but I couldn't handle the math and ended up completely failing all of my classes. Then I tried looking into a course in computer technologies; but that also turned out to be a dead end. Except for my english class I bombed out on the rest of those courses as well. Frustrated, my mom told me that she was not going support my education anymore and that I was going to have to pay for it myself from now on if i planned to continue.

Well at this point I fell into a depression about my life. I was not suicidal; but I felt uselless and that there was no more reason for me to even exist any more. I had wished that I would just fade out of existence. I knew I hit rock bottom when a friend and I were seriously going to go get drunk and go to a strip club. I just didn't care anymore.

Thankfully though whatever part of my consinece was left was still strong enough to keep me from going through with it. I went and saw a carreer advisor and she helped me asses my skills and talents and she suggested that I go into the counselling field. Well now that the new school year has started I am going to a different college now and I for the first time I feel as though I have some purpose. The other courses I took they were fun; but I couldn't do them everyday for the rest of my life. Now For the first time i feel as though I have some purpose some usefullness to my life.

I do still have some problems though. Theres this girl That i used to love more than anything; and now she has turned gay and Now she thinks she may have herpies. I just cant get over her. Im tired of crying over her and hard as I try I just can't seem to let go and move on. I have a hard time talking to girls and getting dates. I dont know why or whats wrong with me cause I want to talk to them; but I just cant. Also I am having a hard time paying for my stuff. Theres just too much.

Im far from out of the woods yet; but for the first time in a long time my life is finnally starting to look up. I feel like Ive got a fresh start now. Thank you for listening to my sob story guys and I really appreciate you praying for me.

WD

Wow... a bunch of stuff there! I'll for sure be praying for you.

Sounds like you've been through a lot and have some challenges yet to face. I'll be praying for you. Keep us posted.

I'll be praying, You can always call on God =)

I will pray that God will be with you!

Why did you want to go to a strip club? O.o

Awww....sure, I'll pray for you. I know how it feels to be useless and unloved, thank God that I'm not. He cared for me ever so often and I just thank Him for that.

Relationship issues? A person you really loved turned gay?
Ugh, that's horible, was she ever a Christian? I know relationship issues.... and it must be even worse to know that the person one loves...backslid ( if she was a Christian even ) and turned homosexual. I'll pray for her...

I know your sorrow and I will deffinately pray for you. Depression isn't a good thing, it's horrible and wrong, and of the devil. Jesus loves you and doesn't want you to suffer...

here are a bunch of verses, copy paste them and print them out or something, they helped me. I hope they help you :
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1 John 3:22-23

22 And whatever we ask we receive from Him, because we keep His commandments and do those things that are pleasing in His sight. 23 And this is His commandment: that we should believe on the name of His Son Jesus Christ and love one another, as He gave us commandment.
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John 16:23-24

23 "And in that day you will ask Me nothing. Most assuredly, I say to you, whatever you ask the Father in My name He will give you. 24 Until now you have asked nothing in My name. Ask, and you will receive, that your joy may be full.
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Eph 3:19-21

19 to know the love of Christ which passes knowledge; that you may be filled with all the fullness of God.

20 Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think, according to the power that works in us, 21 to Him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.
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Mark 11:22-24

22 So Jesus answered and said to them, "Have faith in God . 23 For assuredly, I say to you, whoever says to this mountain, 'Be removed and be cast into the sea,' and does not doubt in his heart, but believes that those things he says will be done, he will have whatever he says. 24 Therefore I say to you, whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them.
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2 Chron 20:20

20 So they rose early in the morning and went out into the Wilderness of Tekoa; and as they went out, Jehoshaphat stood and said, "Hear me, O Judah and you inhabitants of Jerusalem: Believe in the LORD your God, and you shall be established; believe His prophets, and you shall prosper."
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Ps 37:3

3 Trust in the LORD , and do good;
Dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.
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Ps 37:4
4 Delight yourself also in the LORD,
And He shall give you the desires of your heart.
NKJV
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thanks for telling us, I will deffinately pray for you and the girl...

don't be sad, smile! God'll lift you up! ^^

Hey Wise Dragon, I know many of us have hit rock bottom in the spiritual and self worth department, and it's a long climb back out, but through Him you can do anything. I'm glad to hear things are looking up, but I'll still be praying hard for you and this girl you liked.

If you'd like to talk to me about anything, please feel free to PM me. There's a lot I'd like to say, but I don't have the time to type it out. ^o^;;; <3

[/QUOTE=Ryupower]Why did you want to go to a strip club? O.o[quote]
Because they make good conversation.

Yes my friend she was a very good christian. Probably much better than me and I loved her more than anything. Thats why Im woried about her being the way she is now. I pray for her; but it doesn't look like theres any relief in sight. Pray for her.
Thanks guys for your support guys I know its a lot to dump on you seeing as how I haven't been around much lately; but I appreciate your prayers.

I will pray as well.