It is coming at me again.....

Postby **Phantom_Sorano** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 5:12 pm

For years now, I have struggled with depression, having the disorder known as manic depression. I have been free from this for some months now, but with all the negative things going on in my life in the past year, I have slipped back into it again. This makes me nervous because I have plotted to kill myself and have come to the point of suicide where I held a knife to my chest. Many times. But with the recent deaths of a close family member who was the closest person to me in my life, and then my best friend to suicide....it really hurt me....and not being able to grieve has only worsened it. My father has grown even more violent, throwing things and knocking a hole in the wall, and my only friends have turned their backs on me....so please, if you would , I would seriously appreciate your prayers. My walk with God has always been a hard one, and I don't want to be torn any further from Him. Thank you.
-Soran

Postby **meboeck** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 5:21 pm

I will be praying for you. And if you ever need to talk, just pm me. I have everience with depression and having someone close to me commit suicide.

Postby **starwarsboy90** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 5:45 pm

I will pray for you continually. Depression, especially Manic is rough, then all those things happening to you as well. I've gone through that in the past, especially loosing my own Mother, then loosing two more at that and loosing alot of dear people around me. Me, I'm depressed all the time, but then again, the Lord is in control of my life and I am content with it and don't care what happens to me, really, since the Lord is in control. I will continually pray for you, Phantom _Sorano

Postby **Phantom_Sorano** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 5:47 pm

Thank you, and how is the situation with your education and wife?

Postby **DaughterOfZion** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 5:56 pm

i will pray too but sorano you really need to get help, with your depression and your father.

Postby **Yahshua** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 7:49 pm

Will prays for ya.

Postby **Tenshi no Ai** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 8:05 pm

Wow tons of stuff going on there >_< I'll definately be praying!

Postby **Phantom_Sorano** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 8:11 pm

Well, thanks guys, I appreciate this so much, I am already feeling better. And for those who have mentioned my dad, I know I should....but I can't now...but my mother is trying to set it up where I can go to therapy so, no worries. Thanks so much guys, I really appreciate this!!!!

Postby **PigtailsJazz** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 8:48 pm

I have maniac depression, too (cyclothymia to be exact...so it's pretty mild), but I do have some idea of what you're going through. Feel free to PM me if you ever need to talk!

Postby **Phantom_Sorano** » Mon Jun 05, 2006 8:58 pm

Thanks Pigtails, I appreciate it.

Postby **soul alive** » Tue Jun 06, 2006 12:39 pm

Glad to hear you are doing better, depression is a horrible, horrible thing to have to deal with. I went through a lengthy bout of it back in middle and high school due to constant emotional abuse from my mother. While I'm much better now, I have to be careful with my emotions, because I can slip back down into depression fairly easily.

I'll pray for you, that you may continue to get better and stay better.

Postby **Naga Kisaki** » Fri Jun 09, 2006 9:29 pm

I'm sorry you're going through this, PS. I have had depression since I was eight, I don't know what kind it is, but I take Welbutrin for it. Anyway, I know what it's like to be depressed, I'll pray that God carries you few this hard time.

Postby **harina** » Sat Jun 10, 2006 5:42 am

I'll pray for you. I didn't actually now that people can get free from maniac depression.. wow..

Postby **LostChild** » Sun Jun 11, 2006 1:44 am

Hey there, Sorano.

I'm right there with ya. Matter-o-fact, just posted my prayer request minutes ago before comoing here. But this one ain't about me.

I wish I could give you couseling on this subject, but since I'm at a loss myself, the only thing I guess I can do is let you know you're not alone ((aside from lots of prayer)). Everthing I would tell you I have already neglected and said, "That's not for me." (IE: counseling, etc...) So it would be totally hypocritcal for me to do so.

I notice it has been a few days since your last post, therefore I'm praying you haven't fallen into your struggle, even though you've assured us you're doing better. At least you are going to counciling, which is more than I will do. I admit I'm in denial about needing to talk to someone ((which is basically an oximoron. **points to self** you called?))

So, can't wait to hear from you again!

Praying for you, and willing to talk anytime,
~LC

Postby **Jingo Jaden** » Sun Jun 11, 2006 3:44 am

Im so sorry to hear about your hard time. I hope you will re-establish the happy times and get these huge worrys of your back. It is hard, but I know you can come through. I pray that you will find happines and move closer to God. He loves you.

Postby **Ryupower** » Thu Jun 15, 2006 12:38 pm

I once had a little depression in my Christian walk ( for not much of a reason even! ), I was like: " OK, I'm ready to go to heaven! Just take me! "
But guess what: I remembered. I remembered that Jesus an His Holy Spirit is my comforter. The LORD is my comforter. I shall not fear. What can man do to me?
Well, Jesus loves. He's there right now hugging you and trying to comfort you. Always remember that.

I love you!

I will pray for you!
( btw: I let my BF pray for you too. ^^ )

It is coming at me again.....

It is coming at me again.....

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