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*sighs* Okay, this isn't something I typically do. I feel uncomfortable posting prayer request threads for myself, but I'm to the point where I really need prayers and I'm just going to swallow my pride and ask for it.

I'm not going to go into great detail because it's mainly personal and not completely necessary. To make it short, I'm falling apart. A lot of factors in my life have greatly affected me in the past few months. I'm changing into someone I said I'd never be. I've done things I said I'd never ever do, things I'm not proud of. Anger and hurt control my day to day life to the point where I'm finding it hard to function on a minimal level. Anger is NOT in my nature, I'm just using it (inappropriately and unjustly) to cover up the hurt that I feel like I can't deal with anymore. But when the anger fades, I'm left with the same knowledge I've had deep down all along that I'm left with things that I can't change anyway. I've accepted that.

I'm not asking for God to take away the hurt and struggles. I knew the possible results of the decision of I made and I accepted it, but I desperately need prayer being able to at least function and cope on at least a basic level. My life fell apart for two months...I quit my job because I couldn't deal, I ditched ALL of my friends, locked myself away and slept all day every day. I'm trying to get my life back together and keep my chin up and move forward, but this is the only foothold the enemy has on me. Things are coming together again, but every time I get one step forward, I'm slammed into with another blow, always from the same source, and I get pushed two steps back. I don't have the strength or will to keep continuing the way things are going. I feel like I've been walking for days in the desert, and I'm down to my last step, my one last cry, before I feel like I'm about to fall and not be able to get back up. I just...I need God to help me. Just...help me get through it. I know all things can somehow work for the glory of God...but I need to make it through in order for that to happen.

I feel embarrassed xD; Erm...thank you for taking the time to pray for me. I appreciate it.

Praying, DragonShimmer!

i too will be praying, as i struggle with some of the same things for many reasons and dont know why some stuff happens. if you want to talk about it feel free to PM me or IM me or whatever, anything is fine.

Its tough when life seems to fall apart, but God can put things together far better than we've ever thought. I'll be prayin for ya. [†]

I'll be thinking of and praying for you. I know what you're going through must be tough, but have faith-- you and Jesus can handle it. I'll be praying for God to show you the purpose for what's going on and the power to overcome it.

We lurves you, Hopie!

Lifting you up. I believe Satan only attacks us when he see us as a threat. You've been faithful here to give encouarging word here when people express needs. The Bible tells us that our labor is not in vain in the Lord, and that God works all things together for good to those who love Him. Although you may not see the reason for the frustration now, it's in God's control, and you'll be victorious in the end.

I will be praying for you.


Wingzero22

ya know i'm prayin' for ya d/s, i hope things turn around for you

Yeah i'm relating. You shall be inmy thoughts & prayers Hope! *hug*

I will be praying for you DS,
I kind of in a smaller way know how you feel. today I totally broke down and couldn't stop crying and such, until I read this psalm
http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=psalms%2077:1-15&version=31

I hope it helps you a little to. I felt God speaking to me through it, and thought I would pass it on to you.

Be encouraged and remeber
I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us.~romans 8:18

~zooky

I'll pray for you.
If you were sleeping all day like you said for more then 1 or 2 days, that is Very serious, have you talked to a doctor about it?

Will and am always prays for you.

Why didn't I see this one earlier? Anyway, I know how you feel, chica. I've been in that boat more times than I like to admit. You have my prayers. Love you.

I appreciate your thoughts and prayers so much, everyone. It's so comforting and heartwarming to know that people care and are praying.

Mai-yes, I know I exhibit signs of depression, but it's something I've been tiptoeing around for years now, so while it's something that isn't exactly great, I'm not overly concerned about it showing up now. Just making it through each day in baby steps is something I'll be happy with for the time being.

Again, thanks for the prayers and support.

I want to thank everyone who prayed for me from the bottom of my heart. As of yesterday, I'm no longer weighted down and hurt by that which plagued me. For the first time in months, I felt peace and joy, and I'm well content to move on with my life. At first I thought it wasn't possible, but as I sat in prayer and thought about it, the tears streamed down my face as I realized "I AM FREE!!! FINALLY FREE!" I'm happy I guess deep down I knew that God would bring me through it, I just didn't know if I could actually take anymore...but He picked me up and He carried me over the finish line. It's been one heck of a year, but the amazing thing is...I have an awesome testimony now, and it has brought me SO much closer to my Father. The situation was what I needed to grow more, and I'm thankful for it. I entered as a little girl, and came out a growing woman of God.

Anyway, I wanted to thank everyone for the love, prayers and support. God bless you all

Woo-hoo!