worry. its not good for you.
PostPosted: Thu Dec 15, 2005 9:20 am
i know worry isnt good for you. but lately ive been worrying and worrying. whenever i have time to myself, just even for a minute- my mind wanders back to a certian issue. i cant help it. and i hate the feeling. im a person who rarely worries. but this.. just kinda hit me.
Carl is this guy who lives with us at our house. hes 23, and hes kinda like my older brother now... My dad is a priest, and took him in so that he would stop doing drugs and whatnot. hes clean now- and a really nice guy. again, hes like my older brother.
God gave him the gift of discernment. this means he can sense things...like how your spirit is and stuff like that. well...yesterday we were talking, and he told me that God showed him when the devil was going to try and attack me.
it is going to be when i go to college. hes gunna try and pull me down through my art and my friends. waht a sneaky sneakly little ...(using a more appropriate word)- jerk. he knows that i would never want to betray my friends, and that i would stay loyal and i would never wanna do anything that would hurt them. what a sneeky ... little piece of crap. he will try to kill my relationship with God through my friends and my art. and i got so scared.
i know i may not read the bible everyday, or pray everyday- im not like that type of christian. and i know i should, i know it would be good for me.... but i can never get into the habit. but i do go to church every sunday- and it may not seem like it mabye- but i really respect and love my faith with God.
But im afraid.
im afraid that if i go to college, what the devil is planning may work. and i dont want that to happen. at all.
i dont want to lose my relationship. and it worries me alot. and when i think about it, it puts me into this like..depression.
I'm even concidering NOT going to college..just so i dont hafta face it. but i know the devil will try other ways to pull me down.
im just scared that i dont have ... the sort of things i need to protect myself from this. i feel so veunerable right now.
Carl said that if persaveared (sp?), and won against the devil, my art would grow so much- and i could 'just heal people without saying anything. just draw a drawing for them, and they would be healed.'
but everyday now...every hour, minute, second- i dread more and more about going to college.
i dont know what to do.
please pray. :/
Carl is this guy who lives with us at our house. hes 23, and hes kinda like my older brother now... My dad is a priest, and took him in so that he would stop doing drugs and whatnot. hes clean now- and a really nice guy. again, hes like my older brother.
God gave him the gift of discernment. this means he can sense things...like how your spirit is and stuff like that. well...yesterday we were talking, and he told me that God showed him when the devil was going to try and attack me.
it is going to be when i go to college. hes gunna try and pull me down through my art and my friends. waht a sneaky sneakly little ...(using a more appropriate word)- jerk. he knows that i would never want to betray my friends, and that i would stay loyal and i would never wanna do anything that would hurt them. what a sneeky ... little piece of crap. he will try to kill my relationship with God through my friends and my art. and i got so scared.
i know i may not read the bible everyday, or pray everyday- im not like that type of christian. and i know i should, i know it would be good for me.... but i can never get into the habit. but i do go to church every sunday- and it may not seem like it mabye- but i really respect and love my faith with God.
But im afraid.
im afraid that if i go to college, what the devil is planning may work. and i dont want that to happen. at all.
i dont want to lose my relationship. and it worries me alot. and when i think about it, it puts me into this like..depression.
I'm even concidering NOT going to college..just so i dont hafta face it. but i know the devil will try other ways to pull me down.
im just scared that i dont have ... the sort of things i need to protect myself from this. i feel so veunerable right now.
Carl said that if persaveared (sp?), and won against the devil, my art would grow so much- and i could 'just heal people without saying anything. just draw a drawing for them, and they would be healed.'
but everyday now...every hour, minute, second- i dread more and more about going to college.
i dont know what to do.
please pray. :/