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I dont know what to say.

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 1:58 am
by ~Natsumi Lam~
I dont ask pitty, i just ask prayers.

In high school i used to be the happy cheerleader with " no problems" and lots of "friends" and the bible club prez. I had one real real friend for all of high school. Her and i would hang out every day. We never were apart. I was going to be her maid of honor and she was going to be mine. Well, when my wedding came, we had 6 months to plan. She didnt do one thing and made me feel bad when i wanted her help. So i told her not to be in it but come [after long trouble]. She didnt come to the bridal shower and she kicked me out of her wedding by telling me at her bridal shower. Now she hardly talks to me. So i really dont have that friend.

My other brides made was my friend that i met at church. She didnt show up at the Bridal shower or any other party. So i sat at my own bridal shower without any brides maid. I payed for her dress and everything. She didnt even come to my wedding and never talked to me again , and i dont know why.

My husband, i dated him for four years and he used to talk to me and hang out with me. Now we are married only 3 months, we live in a Studio Apt. and he hardly ever talks to me. He was supposed to be my best friend, but i dont have one.

SO i have no friends and i had to move away from my family. My husband hurts my feelings more than any friend i have had before.

So please pray that God with put a friend there and have my husband be one too.

~Natsumi Lam~

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 2:12 am
by Hephzibah
Strewth matie, that sounds really bad. You'll definitely have my prayer support. We should pray that your past relationships will be healed, and that any grudges being held between them and you will be brought to light and healed through Jesus' mighty blood.

I think it would also be a good idea to come before Jesus and ask Him to point out in what ways, if any, you are in the wrong (not saying you are, it's just good to have all bases covered), and if He shows you something then you have the wonderful opportunity to be able to start the healing process with your relationships by asking for forgiveness. It will probably be hard, but Jesus will strengthen you. In the mean time, may this situation bring you into an ever-deepening relationship with the Lord Jesus, who will never fail you!

I'll be praying for you darl

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 2:20 am
by ~Natsumi Lam~
Talame wrote:
I think it would also be a good idea to come before Jesus and ask Him to point out in what ways, if any, you are in the wrong (not saying you are, it's just good to have all bases covered)



I totally and fully agree!! I have for a long time. I asked God to please show me my wrongs. That was the first thing i did. But every time i did, i had complete peace of mind that i didnt do anything wrong. I would go to everyone i have wronged and repent in a second!!! But i know i have not done one thing wrong.

All through highschool and in every youth group i have been in... man the girls hate bad. I mean i have truely tried my hardest. I love sports, art, malls, art, cheerleading, girly stuff. But it seems whatever i do, they just hate on me and never want to be my friend. My parents said it was my fault, but i know i dont judge look bad upon others, i try to enjoy what others do, joke with other, pay for meals, shop with others. I just dont understand. And i dont understand my husband just wants to come home and sit at the computer, not hug me when he comes in. Nothing. We have been married 3 months and i should be able to have a conversion with my husband on a normal basis. i just dont understand. All i know is that for a fact i havent done anything wrong. Thank you so much for your prayers, and wisdom!!!!

~Natsumi Lam~

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 3:52 am
by Hephzibah
I'm not sure what's the deal with your hubbie (not being married myself), but perhaps the problem with your friends could be tied in with the 'tall-poppy' symdrome... ie, those that are 'tall' or constantly doing well are pulled down by others. Perhaps they feel threatened or jealous that you are good at sports stuff, were in a position of leadership (bible club thing) as well as marrying fairly young.

I'm very glad that you have already asked Jesus and that you have peace that you haven't done anything wrong. I guess all we can do, therefore, is pray for the others; that any issues or resentment they are dealing with Jesus will use for good. I'll be praying!

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 2:58 pm
by Alice
~~Prayers~~ T.T Poor girl...

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 3:02 pm
by Silvanis
My prayers.

PostPosted: Mon Sep 05, 2005 3:33 pm
by ~Natsumi Lam~
thanks for all your prayers!!!!! I truely mean it!!!


~Natsumi Lam~

PostPosted: Tue Sep 06, 2005 2:13 pm
by Ryupower
sure

PostPosted: Thu Sep 08, 2005 2:29 am
by ~Natsumi Lam~
Ryupower wrote:sure



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PostPosted: Fri Sep 09, 2005 12:12 am
by Fsiphskilm
I'm goin

PostPosted: Fri Sep 09, 2005 7:04 am
by K. Ayato
Right with you, Volt. You should definitely tell your husband how you feel. I learned the hard way in my last relationship that men are not mind readers.

PostPosted: Tue Sep 13, 2005 9:20 pm
by Artist4Jesus89
i will