CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

Hi, guys... it's me again. Uh... I don't usually do this, but there are a lot of things in my life and the lives of those I care very deeply about... too much for me to handle on my own for the moment. Therefore, I come to all of you... my brothers and sisters in Christ... and I beg for your prayers.

First... my first girlfriend... her name is Whitney. You remember her? She's the one that I asked you guys to pray for last time (thanks to all who answered the call). I don't know God's will concerning her life... but she's running from Him. I want His will to be done no matter what... it's the only way she'll be happy in her life. But right now... the much older guy she was with during that other time, from what I hear, proposed to her last night... and I don't know what she's going to do. I fear for her, really. Regardless of what her and I may be, friends or not, I still care and worry about her... so I ask that you offer your prayers on her behalf.

Second... my best friend, John. He made some crazy mistakes before... and now they're catching up to him. A girl is claiming that he raped her and this is seriously messing with his life in the worst way. I know him very well... and though I don't know all of what he may have done in the past, I know his character well... I know that's something that he's not capable of... I'm sure of it. However... the people who "matter" don't believe him. His dad has a lot of pull with the police in his area and he's doing all that he can... but it may not be enough. Therefore, I ask that you cover his situation in your prayers as much as you can.

Third... for one of our own, c.t.,girl. She doesn't know that I'm making this request. Hopefully, she won't kill me... but... she has a lot going on in her life right now... her health isn't the greatest: her back is hurting her pretty badly, she's been fainting pretty recently, and she's just been going through a lot of stuff on top of that. Please pray for her as well, that she may recover quickly from everything and that things get better for her as she struggles to live her life on God's agenda.

Finally... for myself. I'm not going through the greatest of times right now. My problem with pornography is getting worse, no matter what measures I take to contain the problem... my grades are slipping (I ended up getting a D in a class where I could have easily gotten an A) and my desire to live greater than what I am now couldn't be lower... I... I can't feel God's presence as much as I used to... I'm getting worse at maintaining my friendships... my very character is changing for the worse and people can feel it happening (one of my co-workers told me that she could feel that something inside me is changing, and it scares me that she could tell me that)... I just want to be the person that I used to be at 14. I was a good student... though I was shy, I had a good, upstanding character... and my relationship with God was closer then than it ever was in my entire life! Now... I'm scared that I'm going to lose myself and I don't want that to happen! I mean... I know I'm saved. I know I'm going to heaven. However, right now... I don't even care about the destination. I want to serve. I want to do someting for Him with my life before I'm dead... I hear so much about the potential I have and I want to fulfill that... but... right now... it's like I've fallen into a deep sea and I'm floundering around, looking for the surface of the water, but I can't tell which way is up. I'm just not sure about myself... but I have to remain strong for my friends' sake. A lot of them see me as a very strong person in the Spirit... but at this moment, I'm feeling the weakest I've ever been. So... after all that... please... pray for me that I can get back on the path I'm supposed to be on.

Thank you for all who pray... even if it's the quickest, most cookie-cutter type prayer in the world... if it's genuine... if it's from the heart... I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

Wow, that's quite a load indeed.

Although I don't know you or your girlfriend much, all I can say is do you really think the relationship has a future? By no means am I saying there isn't, but I find it quite odd how she doesn't give a clear response to the proposal given by her old boyfriend. I don't know much when it comes to relationships and girls, but perhaps you should sit down and have a serious talk with her see how she really feels about you, and her old boyfriend. Because if she's not sure, then it's not fair for you to give emotions to someone w/o it being returned. And I will continue to pray for her search for God.

The situation your friend John has seems serious. I surely hope the rumors about what he did isn't true... But since I really dont' know what exactly happened, I will definitely pray that God helps him through all of this.

And as always, I will continue to pray for C.T. Girl about her life struggles and health.

I just want to be the person that I used to be at 14. I was a good student... though I was shy, I had a good, upstanding character... and my relationship with God was closer then than it ever was in my entire life!

I doubt anyone is the same person they where at age 14. I'm not the same person I was 2 years ago. Nor the same from last. As we all grow up, we start forming our own realities of the world and learn how to deal with life difficulties as well as having new priorities. I will be praying that God molds you into the person He plans for you to be. And I can agree, lust is a very difficult thing to battle... The only thing I can recommend is to have faith in God and be willing to battle hard. Personally, whenever I feel distant from God or what I need to be doing, I go out alone for a drive to a place that eases my mind. I start thinking what in my life needs to be changed and what I can do to be ensure I'm happier. Sometimes it's just a small feeling but it's something. Although the bible is a great reference and should be looked to for guidance, I don't believe keeping your nose in it all day is the way to change or move your heart. Sometimes we need to take time to do some self discovery.

Whatever it may be, I will be praying for you, your friends and of course C.T. girl. I really hope things work out.

Edit: Opps, what I meant by not always keeping your nose in the bible, is that sometimes we need to take those words we read and learn, then find the best way to intergrade that into our daily lifes-- self discovery. Because sometimes reading isn't always enough to make us change our livestyle.

"I doubt anyone is the same person they where at age 14. I'm not the same person I was 2 years ago. Nor the same from last. As we all grow up, we start forming our own realities of the world and learn how to deal with life difficulties as well as having new priorities. I will be praying that God molds you into the person He plans for you to be. And I can agree, lust is a very difficult thing to battle... The only thing I can recommend is to have faith in God and be willing to battle hard. Personally, whenever I feel distant from God or what I need to be doing, I go out alone for a drive to a place that eases my mind. I start thinking what in my life needs to be changed and what I can do to be ensure I'm happier. Sometimes it's just a small feeling but it's something. Although the bible is a great reference and should be looked to for guidance, I don't believe keeping your nose in it all day is the way to change or move your heart. Sometimes we need to take time to do some self discovery."

Yes, very true words spoken indeed. You may not have the best of characters now and you may be struggling with perversion but don't feel like you can pray to God or read the Bible for guideance. God sees us and all of our shame no matter what we to try and hide it and no matter what you can always go to Him and prayer for help in your struggles against sin.

If you haven't done so already I advice that you through away all your porno material and if you have channels that get porn get your cable or satilite service cut off. Do whatever takes to keep your mind out of the gutter/get it out of the gutter and into the light. If anything starts to turn you on just turn your eyes from it and practice focusing your thoughts on more innocent things.

For the rest, brethren, whatever is true, whatever is worthy of reverence and is honorable and seemly, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely and lovable, whatever is kind and winsome and gracious, if there is any virtue and excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think on and weigh and take account of these things [fix your minds on them]. Philipians 4:8

Let God's Word be a beacon of light to lead you out of the darkness and know people are praying for you.

God bless.

of course i won't kill you...and i'm still and always am praying for all of you...lol and sometimes even myself...lol o_~d

~chris

I shall be praying for all of your request. But you might could use this...

Looking to Jesus.~ Hebrews 12:2

It is always the Holy Spirit’s work to turn our eyes away from self to Jesus. But Satan’s work is just the opposite; he is constantly trying to make us look at ourselves instead of Christ. He insinuates, “Your sins are too great for pardon; you have no faith; you do not repent enough; you will never be able to continue to the end; you do not have the joy of His children; you have such a wavering hold on Jesus.â€

hmm...didn't realize this is a month old til just now. s'ok though. *hug* hope some things have improved and are working out...praying for you now.

I only just saw this thread today, too. It may be a month later but I've prayed for the respective people. Thanks for sharing those needs and may God draw each of you closer to Himself and give you strength to fight your respective battles.

I will pray. Please let us know how things are going. I pray that God is working in your life.