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walking dead man
PostPosted: Fri May 13, 2005 4:54 pm
by sonichiro
hi, i deffianetly need some prayer. the past couple weeks ive been alienating myself from God nand not reading my Bible or spending time in prayer. im not sure why, even though i know that without those things im a living dead man (and i really do feel kinda dead) i just cant seem to go and do it. not only do i feel ill spiritually, but i feel ill physically as well. even though im not that much over weight i can feel my body is really ill. i havent been eating healthy or exercising at all and i can litterally feel my body about to collapse. and the past couple days ive been thinking things like "what are ytou still doing alive? you have nothing to live for! how are you still standing you should be dead!?" which is weird because i have so much to live for. im going on a missions trip this summer, im on the youth leadership team at my church, im on the arts committee at school and just finished the arts festival yesterday and am starting my peices for next year, i have allot of ambition and was excited but i dont know what happened. ive been going to bed late everynight. i went to bed a two yesterday and stayed home from school today. my parents are in ottawa so its not like i can get them to pray over me since their like six hours away. i really just need a hug, i really miss God, but its my own fault that i cant feel him. i also watched this movie yesterday that i shouldnt have and for some reason read my horriscope today, which is odd becuase i am firmly against horriscopes and such. i just want to climb into bed and sleep my life away for a while. please pray for some life, self-discipline, and for me to feel good spiritually and physically. i would really apreciate it. -sonichiro fugiyama
PostPosted: Fri May 13, 2005 5:19 pm
by SorasOathkeeper
I'll be praying for you.
PostPosted: Fri May 13, 2005 5:33 pm
by Archan
Hello,
I just want you to know that you have my prayers, and that I hope you get over this slump very soon. I myself went through a phase of being spiritually dead, lasted roughly a month or more, not sure, don't like to think about it. But anyways, I was all depressed and whatnot and I just had to eventually force myself on my knees and pray to God for His guidence and help, and a funny thing about going through a spirtual state of deadness is that it actually bring you closer to God in the end because we know we are new Creatures through Christ, and without Him we just don't feel the same, the same love, the same understanding, all of it is gone. and we start to crave it even more...we become more dependent on God and we trust him more, we confide in Him more.....we talk to Him more. So don't be too alarmed at what your going through, everyone has sooner or later gone through a state of Spiritual depression. But God specifically says He's wont give you any more burden then He knows you can handle...so rest assured that you do have what it takes to get out of this depression.
As for being tired, I found that the lack of exercise and being in-active overall will have long term effects on the human body. I started excercising ALOT more over the past few months and I feel a HUGE difference, I can get up in the morning now for one thing. My mind is sharper, I don't feel sluggish, I draw more, yesterday I moved my parents couch with them on it, a combined weight of 500 pds give or take....it feels really good to be active again. So, you might want to try doing some basic excercise or just keeping yourself active by walking, yard work, jumping around, doing more outdoor activites like hiking, fishing, camping, stuff that'll keep you moving and your blood flowing. then, when you start to feel the difference kick it up a notch and start a daily routine of just excercising. You'll start to see huge differences in your over all health and energy.
Hope some of this helps, and I read you needed a hug as well so....
God Bless,
Archan
PostPosted: Sat May 14, 2005 9:08 am
by sonichiro
thanks allot you guys. ive actually started feeling better. i read some scripture last night and went to bed early (for a friday that is...) my overall mood has changed since yesterday. yesterday was a terrible day for me and when i didnt think it could get any worse, it did. today i was supposed to go to a reeeeeally close friends birthday party, but since my parents are in ottawa my friends dad was going to drive me there. last night his car broke down and she called to tell me, she was really upset because she wanted me there so much (shes like a sister to me) when she told me i couldnt help but laugh. i laughed so hard for so long and she couldnt understand what was so funny. when she had told me it suddenly hit me: no matter how bad you feel (spiritually, mentally, physically) God is always going to provide. there is no need to have any fear or worry because the Lord is right there to catch you when you fall. so when there was that one thing that added onto my frustrations of the week i just had to stop and laugh at myself for forgetting the love and provision of the Father. and guess what happened this morning?? my friend called me again to tell me that her grandma was going to come and pick me up to drive me to her birthday party! so thats so awsome how God came through! anywho...thankyou guys so much for your prayers and the advice, im feeling well and refreshed, so thanks again
-brandon
PostPosted: Sat May 14, 2005 9:14 am
by dragonshimmer
Glad to see that you're doing a bit better. Keep that chin up and remember you are a child of God, and even though we push Him away sometimes...He is always there. *hugs* Still in prayers.
PostPosted: Sat May 14, 2005 9:43 am
by FadedOne
aww =/ sorry you're dealing with this. glad to see things are some better though. Shall try to keep you in prayer this week and hope all works out. smile
PostPosted: Sat May 14, 2005 10:49 pm
by ssj2gohan61
will do....i think everyone feels the same way at times in there life
PostPosted: Sun May 15, 2005 12:24 am
by Slater
I know how you feel man. I'll be prayin'.