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i've been backsliding lately. i think i've got that under control but ya know...
also sometimes it seems to me that people (including my friends) dont really think about me... i mean everyone is nice and all but it's like i keep giving and giving and doing what i can to help ang not doing what i want so that i wont hurt anybody but it seems like no one is giving me the same consideration
i think about other people a lot and it seems that they never think of me and it makes me really sad sometimes... i wish they'd think of me at least some
i know that's really selfish to be like hey think of me instead of this other stuff and i know there are plenty of things more important than me but really i'm hurting because it often seems like everything is being deemed more important than me and i just want it to stop
i know that if i talked to some people about it they'd probably make an effort at least but i dont want to do that because i'm stuck wanting to put other's wants before mine. to me it seems like that would be putting me before other people...
i dunno what to do other than to ask for prayer

Sure thing. I think I know how you feel. I'll be thinking of you and praying as well. I care about you, and more importantly, God cares about you so so much.

I know the feeling, and man it is tough to go through. What you are doing with putting other people ahead of yourself is a VERY admirable thing to do. It is that kind of selfless attitude of giving that God wants people to have. It is also natural to want compassion, care, attention, and love shown towards yourself as well. Just remember, have faith, do not harbor bitterness, and look to God, who can love like no other.

i know EXACTLY what you mean...seriously...i do. if i have money, i give it to someone who doesn't have a lunch(i then go without lunch). if someone is cold, i give them my jacket(i go cold). if someone needs help with they're books, i help them(i'm then late for class or meeting my dad in the parking area...trust me...it's not good). as you do...i care more for others than myself. if someone who i don't like very much is being picked on, i help them out(i'm the one to be picked on after that and the person never recognizes that i ever helped them). if i go ask for any help(i'll never mention the things i've done for the person) but only to those who have a lot of either food or such...and they always tell me no...so i'm left to go hungry and cold and late...so...no i've sorta started to stop being a Good Will and just doing what they do to me...if they look at me like, "what are you doing? i thought we were friends? i've done things for you!" i just tell them, "just showing you the same kindness you showed me..." and then they seem to understand, which is then that i'll help them.

heh...i can just never say no. ^^

^^ i'll pray.

I can empathize. I'm pretty much a friend to everyone I come into contact with and help others out as much as I can, but no one ever really stops to ask how I'm feeling. I've accepted it, as that's just the way things work for me, but like you, I do feel looked-over and lonely at times, regardless of all the friends around me. It's not selfish to feel this way, and God knows how you feel. Remember that He will reward in you some way for your selflessness with others -- if nothing else, He loves you!

That's what encourages me, at least! I'll pray.

I will pray.

thanks a load to all of you