CAA: Christian Anime Alliance

Please pray for me guys, I really need your help, now more than any other time since I joined CAA. I've tried nearly everything I can think of to curb my porn addiction, and nothing seems to work. I have come to conclusion that I can't defeat this by myself, I need serious help.

I don't look at anything during work hours, but after I'm done working, I have unlimited access to the net after hours. What's worse is that the boss can track my internet use via the network software. I tell myself I'm not going to do it, and can stay off of it for a week or two, but then suddenly I find myself looking at things I am ashamed of. Then I snap out of it and feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself for risking everything I've worked for. If I lose my job, my life will be over, and my last chance to do well in the world will go up in flames. I've made progress; I don't look at it near as much as I used to, but still I can't be looking at it all or I'm risking everything.

What I really need are all the verses you guys can find that deal with purity. "I shall put no evil thing before my eyes" for example. I think the accountability software might be worth a shot, but if someone does decide to try that with me, I need them to be close to my age.

Lord Jesus, I hope I'm doing the right thing.......please give me strength and help me defeat this so that I can live a pure life, and not one that you would be ashamed of.

thats some tough stuff to deal with man. ill throw some prayers up for you .. its definately not an easy thing to deal with. awhile back i took part in a purity bible study, we all read the "ever young mans series", and this one was titled "every young mans battle". its a book that tackles porn/lust head on, and ways to deal with it and beat it with a Christ centered outlook. I STRONGLY recommend this book to any brother, reguardless if they struggle with lust or not. i hope this helps ya man

I struggled with this same problem a while ago, but I was able to defeat it through the cross of Christ. This is how I pray when I am tempted.

I picture myself at the Crucifixion. Jesus is on the cross with Mary and John at his feet, and the Good Thief next to him. I kneel in front of Jesus on the cross with my guardian angel praying over me and my patron saint. We pray for strength and then I bring in the women from the pornagraphy clothed in a white gown I've viewed, and I ask Jesus to change the way I see them from objects of lust into children of God, created in his image. I end by praying for the women too, that they would turn to Christ and live holy lives.

This works really well for me. Ever since I started doing this five years ago, I have not looked at porn once.

Dude,
First of all, your life will not be over. Loosing a job is no big deal. You will survive.

That said, there are ample resources to help you. A very good friend and accountability partner of mine recommends http://www.settingcaptivesfree.com They provide free courses on breaking the cycle of habitual sin as well as other resources.

I think it is also vital to have a Real Life accountability partner. This is hard for men, because you need to make yourself vulnerable. If you don't have anyone like that in RL, then find someone you feel close to online - specifically a male. Most women, even if they try to be helpful, will not understand what you are going through. Sign up for some accountability software. This software monitors where you go on the web and reports it to your chosen accountability partner. You can get this software from a lot of places, such as xxxchurch.com

If you are serious about combating your problem, then serious consider getting some help. Don't go it alone.

Somethings in life require sacrifice, even it it's the hardest thing to give up. Porn addiction is quite hard to beat. The best advice I can do is to try doing something else that occupies your mind and time when you get tempted. That seems to help me a lot. Things like going out and playing basketball, lifting weights or hang out w/ friends. Or put thoughts in your mind of, "Can't do it, I know it's wrong, and if I do get caught, I could loose my job."

Though, I will say that when people are depressed or have many things going on in life, the addiction is much harder to break. Because we use that self-pitty or anxiety and have it fuel our physical and/or emotional needs.

Anyways, I'll keep you in my prayers. Just keep praying and if/when you get the desire, just try doing something that occupies your mind.

V8Tsunami,

My heart totally goes out to you. I know just how hard it is to have your life controlled by sin. When you can feel it rising, your mind screaming to stop, but your hands, you eyes continue on… To loath your self and every thing you do.

The way sin taunts you, leaving for a short time. Allowing you to feel victorious, only to spring its control once more.

But its not unbeatable.

Things to remember:
Everything is possible through Christ. The moment you think you cannot win, you have already lost. Even if you lose a battle or two NEVER give up. That’s exactly what satin wants. He demoralizes us. Makes us question if we can even beat sin, this is just one of his many deceptions.

Honesty. Be completely honest with your self and those around you. I know you can see satins lies around this imorrality, but hold fast to the truth of what you are doing. Also, find some one who loves you, who wants you to grow in Christ; and confess your sins to them. All of it. This will feel like the hardest thing you have ever done in your life, but just remember that one day you will have to do it all again (to Christ himself). While it will feel exceedingly hard to do, it will also bring tremendous relief as you friend will now pray with you and hold you accountable for actions.

God doesn’t just frown on sin, he down rite hates it. Sin and God cannot co-exist, His very nature is the opposite of Sin. Though He loves us, he absolutely loathes our sin. As we seek to please God we must remember that he doesn’t just get upset at sin, He cannot stand it.

God has already given you the power to beat this sin. We are all fully empowered to ban the sin in our lives. We have only to stand and do it, and Christ will be there with us.

Completely avoid potential circumstances. While you are in a remission, reorganize your life. Point your computer toward an area where people can see what you are doing freely. Don’t work late while people are not there. Make appointments just after work if you have to keep your self from staying. You are your worst enemy when it comes to this, you know your own weaknesses, you have to be honest and cover all the bases you can.

James 4:7 Submit yourselves, then, to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you.
While James is completely right here, he does not mean that the War is over. The Devil will return. You must always be prepared.

Memorize the Bible. Not the entire Bible (though I will not discourage this ^_^ ) ,but commit to a regular schedule of verse memorization. Verses that pertain directly to your sin. When the devil comes to tempt you, fight back with the word of God! With His word engrained in your mind you will find it taking hold of your life (which is good).

Almost done.

Be weary. Satin often uses big, painful sins like this to blind us to other areas in our lives that we may need just as much help in.

Finally, if you are truly serious about kicking this sin for good; go buy and read the book The Persuit of Holiness by Jerry Bridges; $8.25 on Amazon.com.

I will definitely be praying for you V8Tsunami, and every one else who is also struggling with this, whether they post here or not.

-kaji

You're absolutely right: you can't defeat it on your own. But with God all things are possible!
Here are some verses. Meditate on them, and try looking up stuff in the Bible on your own.
Matthew 6:33
Philippians 4:8
Philippians 4:13
Psalm 91:14-16
2 Timothy 2:22
Joshua 1:8
Keep meditating on these verses and I will be praying for you.

Update: Things are going better. I've started leaving as soon as possible and not staying when people aren't around. I can also hear something telling me to get out of my office as soon as possible after hours. It seems to be working well, as I've only looked at things a couple of times in the last 2-3 weeks. I've got a long way to go, but things finally seem to be turning around, albeit slowly. Continue praying for me guys, and I'll pray for everyone else here that's dealing with this.