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sigh... okay. i feel kinda stupid posting this, but lately i'm starting to get worried. here's the deal:

this past year i planned on going to school to take a multimedia course. i applied for a student loan, and got one. except that it didnt' cover everything i needed. i was 6,000 dollars short, and that money had to be paid up front in september. my family has never had alot of money, so my mom couldn't afford to help out at all. after trying to take out seperate loans to cover what a government one wouldn't (and failing), i decided that i would have to postpone my education until september 2005 . the plan is to work all this year, save, and apply for a loan next year. with the money i will have saved i can pay the difference, right?... except that there's one problem.... it's almost 2005 and i am still looking for a job. i haven't been extremely worried about it. i mean, i'm taking it serioulsly, and so far i've just been trusting God that i will find work in the right place at the right time...... but it's getting harder to trust Him. and i had a thought last night.... that if i dont' find a job soon, i may not even get a loan. the government seems to think finding a job is easy as pie. when the reality is that nobody wants to hire somone with no training and no experience. i've been looking, so it's not like i'm being lazy about it.
i've been battling thoughts the last day about what i'm going to do if i dont get my loan. i have some plans for the next few years, ones that depend on me going to this school, though i am certainly willing for God to change them on me, but even still, i feel like i've been on a rollercoaster of changing plans for the last year, and now i'm starting to loose my nerve. i've finally made up my mind about what i want to do, and then this happens. if i don't get a loan, or even a job, i will have to totally change all the plans i've made.

i believe that if i am supposed to go to school next year, that God will work things out, and i have no reason to worry. but for some reason i am really worried now, and i havent' been yet.....

so, i guess, please pray that i will keep trusting God. and that i will put Him first in my life, not me. that i won't loose faith just because of something so small and insignificant like a student loan, after all, God is so much bigger than any of the problems we have do deal with, so why do we worry? whew!!! i dont' really know what else to say, but thanks to anyone who reads this. (i hope i made enough sense). God bless.

i will pray for you!!

You'll be in my prayers. I know the feeling of financial problems intermixed with school and everything, I'm currently going through something like that too. God provides, just have faith and stay strong!

I'll pray for you, jazz, and that God will ease your spirit and calm your worries. I think that these kinds of things just come with the territory when we young'uns get to this age, so perhaps some comfort can be found in that! Hang in there!

First off I can relate. Since my family never had much money I got a job right when I turned 16yrs old and saved every penny. My parents couldn't financially help me either so I had to do what it took to goto school. I started off in a local grocery store as a baggier and cleaned up things.
Sometimes many think there are no jobs out there, but most don't look in the right places. Now, Im not saying you haven't but have you looked into:
1)The grocery store
2)restaurant business such as being a waiter
3) fast food

All these kind of jobs tend to have a high turn over rate. It may be worth looking into if you really need a job. Although, I don't live in Canada and have no idea what the job market is like... Just don't give up hope.

Second, continue to have faith. Although you may not get the loans you need, never count yourself out. There is always a way to succeed. Sometimes there are bigger things at hand, and sometimes we need wait and be patient with the Lord. It's not fair to God to put all of your whole faith or belief in Jesus on a "yes/no or provide me now" question. Sometimes God tells us no, or to continue to wait. He knows what's best for us. God has told many people in the Bible to wait, some for over 50yrs... God doesn't just brush us to the side, there is a reason for everything. Anyways, I think you'll be just fine, just continue to have faith in God, He will provide you with all you need.

thank you so much for all the prayers and support, they are so much appreciated... it's so hard to trust God sometimes.... but that doesn't mean that i'm not going to trust Him. yay! thanks again... God bless you all. *hug*

i know i said it already, but thank you sooo much for all your prayers. i just got a call from this huge grocery store down the street. i have an interview this afternoon. it's not the most glamorous place to work, but i'm not complaining. yay that God answers prayer!!!!! i'll let you all know what happens. thank you again, God bless.

Well, it seems that God has opened a door. I'll be praying your interview goes well and that He'll provide what you need.

yay! i got a job!!! thank you all sooooo much! i work tomorrow!! in the bakery department! at 6:00 in the morning!!!! haha! yay! i get to wrap doughnuts all day!!! w00t!!!! God is so faithful!

Praise God! That's great! I wish you all the best with your job. Mmmm! Doughnuts.

*sung to the tune "i have a log" / "i have a pickle" whatever it's called

jazz has a job, jazz has a job, jazz has a job, hey, hey, hey, hey!!!

yay!! so good!!!! God is just too awesome!! and He always provides.
no more of this: teehee!!!
love ya