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sometimes i myself scare me. i mean for some reason i've been having really weird moods, mostly i've been in a mean mood like i scream and throw stuff and well i told my friends that if they'd touch me that i might hurt them. i don't know what to do! well i mean yah i know that i must pray and also i guess please pray for me that i stop getting like this. i get scared of myself sometimes cuz sometimes i start writing about killing myself. now i know i would never do that but i'm scared that something would really get to me and i would lose control of myself and actually do it. now i know i wouldn't cuz i don't wanna go to hell. when i get like this i start to hate. not the world but myself cuz i hate to hate and then i feel like i get in a self pitty mood and want everyone to feel sorry for me and pay attention to me. then i start to really hate myself cuz i hate being like this and then it's like i'm possessed, well not really but it's like something that ppl who have been like this can only understand. right now i feel like i'm the only one who feels like this. i need to be told i'm not the only one. please pray for me. i feel like i have no feelings right now. like i'm empty. help.


if anyone want to know what goes in my head pm me. i don't think it would be apropriate for everyone cuz i think it might scare some ppl. oh and be prepared for what i show you if you pm me.

i will be praying for yah...

I'll pray. Please PM me....I'd like to talk with you...k?

Hey, at times we all feel like we need to scream. To be honest, I don't know what your going through, but I have faith God will be able to aid you through these hard times. And there is no reason to hate youself, just remember your a child of God that's made in his image. You are never alone, God will alway be there to help you through the tough times:

Isaiah43:2 "When thou passest through the waters, I will be with thee; and through the rivers, they shall not overflow thee: when thou walkest through the fire, thou shalt not be burned; neither shall the flame kindle upon thee."

Also there are alway people here at CAA that willing to help. I'm not the best advice giver, but if you ever need someone to talk to feel free to PM me. I will surely pray for you. Keep smiling.

i'll try but i don't know if i can. i don't think i'll be using smilies for a while or replying to threads cuz i feel if i do i'll take out all my rage on that so i'll just stay in certain ones i'm not sure which ones right now but yah. i don't think i'll be welcoming anyone either cuz i won't be able to welcome them as i usually do(crazy and hyper, yet full of joy). everything that you guys think would be written is already written here. i'm confused on why i feel like this and i really hate it. i know i shouldn't hate myself but i just get like this. i know i can talk to anyone here but i don't really wanna scare ppl and make them leave me. so just pray. i think it would be wise not to ask me to send you of what goes on in my mind. i'd scare you very much. so just pray.

same here, but

i can't. if i do i'll scare myself. i'll start to hurt myself, literally. i'll do things that i use to do in the past. i don't wanna be that person anymore. i guess that's why i get like this. cuz i can't loosen up. i have to control myself or else i'll become scary.

i don't think i'm still well enough to post so i'm just looking around and pming that's all i'm doing at the moment. i'm still in a mood just not as bad i'm like 75% happier. sorta well enough for a smilie just not many.

I will pray for you. I actually get half way like that most of the time... And I have no idea why... But, I'll pray for you.

I will also pray

i will pray as well

I'm praying for ya, and if you wanna pm me, I'd be glad to talk to you!

Hate can be a very unhealth and dangerous emotion, especially when directed at people (yourself included!) I'd probably be lying if I told you that I know what you're going through, but if you need someone else to talk to, dont hesitate to pm me like I said

thanks you guys!

Yeah I'll deffinetly pray for you as well. I usually bottle my emotions up for long periods of time and once in a blue moon really explode on someone so I know what you mean. When you think you are starting to become hateful just remember to say a little prayer to God to help it pass.

thanks jimbo! i'm actually feeling better!

I will pray.

also pray for things to go better between me and my dad. if anyone wants to know pm me. i'd feel more comfortable that way. seriously do if you are just a bit curious. i have no objection to it.

i will be praying

i will be praying

I'm praying.

thanks everyone! i'm a whole lot more happier now! ^_^d i mean i'm back to being my happy self again! ^_^d

That's so good to hear. *glomps C.T.* Now you stay that way, ya hear!

rotfl! hey all i can do is try! but yah i don't wanna be that way again! ^_^d

okay so i'm not as bad as i was but i'm feeling empty again. please don't try to cheer me up, just pray for me and a person, and for that person to make their disicion and to make it wisely and in God. thanks.

and to you person! if you read this don't feel bad! it's just how things happen! don't feel obligated to do anything rash! if you feel the need to say no then say no! but don't toy with me! i'm bad at figuring things out!

CT I can totally relate with these kind of feelings its like some times I feel just real cool and stuff and be kicking with people, other times I 'm like Mann get my face I don't feel seeing nobody,
I don't know but I can really get down at times, I feel your pain

thanks but i'm not feeling that way right now but thanks. it's nice to know i'm not the only one like this.

May I ask? What circumstances bring on these feelings? I would have feelings of hate at all humanity when someone made fun of me. I would feel like punishing everyone for the action of the few. I would feel like a whole different person who only hates. I realized that it does not matter what other people think of me. It only mattered what God thought of me. I guess I just am trying to tell you you are not alone. God is always with you.

look i said i wasn't feeling like that now. iono why i got like that then. i know God is always with me but sometimes it feels like he's so far even though i'm the one who makes it seem like he is.

i will be praying...Trust Him, He knows what He is doing

i will. thanks swordguy! i'm actually feeling a bit better! ^_^