Sorry I havent been posting much again. For the past 3 weeks I've had my boyfriend over where I live to visit. He lives across the country from me, 3 hours difference, and long distance phone calls.
We've been "dating" for about a year now, we met in 8th grade, and since I moved at the end of 8th grade, we've been keeping in contact through MMORPG's, 2hour a day phone calls (with cellphone nighttime minutes) and AIM.
Since he left my place about 3 days ago, both of us have been pretty depressed, of couse we miss eachother even more than before, which is what my parents were probably terrified of.
I want to see him again next summer, and as my older friend/ counciller (as a carreer) told me, if I'm happier when he leaves, I have a better chance of next year him coming down again, or even better me going back to my old town. But I'm having alot of trouble acting happy for them, when I know I should. I should be happy I saw him, but everything is so boring again. I almost want to say everything feels empty. However, I dont really need the prayer more than my boyfriend, chris, does. I think he's almost taking it worse than I am. He was really depressed last year during school, he doesnt have many friends because he has been given the title of "freak" and "goth" and other really sterotypical names at school.
It would be appreciated if you guys could just pray for strength for chris, and for him to get more friends that will accept him. Perhaps strength for me too :')
A big problem that I'm finding is that after all this I'm finding all my music that I used to listen to alot. (an example "wake up hate" by Korn)
Chris and I both need more help finding God, I'm closer to God than Chris is, and I think Chris needs to find him soon. I still have alot trouble in faith, but I suppose thats normal n_n
Please just keep us in mind
--DIRGE
