arg.. I've been bottling up my feelings too long, and i need to get them out...
anyway, i've had a horrible week, esp. at school... For a contrast, i've been one of those straight a students since 10th grade, through college. Calc II was a blow-off course to me.
However, this semester has been much more difficult then any other semester i've had. i'm getting about constant b+'s in speech, and last week found out that i got a 78 on my first physics test... but there was a ton of extra credit work the teacher allowed us to do so i was like, ok, just do extra credit, get up to an a again, and keep going.
however, i've been having a rough time memorizing the formulas in class, and the real clencher came when i just got a 70 on my english paper - the one that i worked over 15 solid hours on...
Besides this, my last job ended last november, and the callback from a job that looked most promising for me to get keeps being delayed...
anyway, i have no idea what to do - gradually, i've stopped playing video games entirely this semester, stopped reading, continued to decline offers to hang out with friends, even using the time i used to go to work for (As opposed to regular free time last semster) just to keep up on homework, and have had next to nill free time...
my dad nearly flipped when he heard that i got my first (and only) a- in a class before, and i need to keep up straight a's if i'm going to be able to afford college... so i'm really not sure how to continue... more study? stop sleeping? just blame it on a slew of poor teachers? bleh.
i'm just all mixed up emotionally... any prayer would be greatly appreciated.