Postby sonichiro » Fri May 13, 2005 4:54 pm
hi, i deffianetly need some prayer. the past couple weeks ive been alienating myself from God nand not reading my Bible or spending time in prayer. im not sure why, even though i know that without those things im a living dead man (and i really do feel kinda dead) i just cant seem to go and do it. not only do i feel ill spiritually, but i feel ill physically as well. even though im not that much over weight i can feel my body is really ill. i havent been eating healthy or exercising at all and i can litterally feel my body about to collapse. and the past couple days ive been thinking things like "what are ytou still doing alive? you have nothing to live for! how are you still standing you should be dead!?" which is weird because i have so much to live for. im going on a missions trip this summer, im on the youth leadership team at my church, im on the arts committee at school and just finished the arts festival yesterday and am starting my peices for next year, i have allot of ambition and was excited but i dont know what happened. ive been going to bed late everynight. i went to bed a two yesterday and stayed home from school today. my parents are in ottawa so its not like i can get them to pray over me since their like six hours away. i really just need a hug, i really miss God, but its my own fault that i cant feel him. i also watched this movie yesterday that i shouldnt have and for some reason read my horriscope today, which is odd becuase i am firmly against horriscopes and such. i just want to climb into bed and sleep my life away for a while. please pray for some life, self-discipline, and for me to feel good spiritually and physically. i would really apreciate it. -sonichiro fugiyama
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