Hello,
I don't think we've ever meet, but I just wanted to let you know that I am praying for you, that God gives you peace and understanding in this very trying time. I myself recently had to attend 2 funerals of both family members and good friends, and I'm still lightly feeling affected by it. But know that God is there, and though we do not understand "why" at the moment, why this happens, why now, why you.....know that you will understand in time, and you will get your answers and find peace. Take confort in knowing that God is still there, and He is still looking after yu even though it may not seem like it at this time. also, you have people here whom you can talk to and whom will pray for you....may peace find you.
God Bless,
Archan