I'm failing at everything...Nobody's talking to me...I'm not being true to my word...I feel nothing...
I know God's there for me, I know he is, but I don't know what to do with his word
I was so close to dropping what I need to do for my future and it was so mortifying and horrible...I don't want to fail, I don't want to fall.
Wow, I'm a bit confused... First off your not alone. I felt the same way many times in the past. I would always have a plan and then do something really stupid that would perhaps jeopardize my future. Perhaps you may not know what you want to do in your life, but many are in the same situation. It took me like a really really long time to decide what major to do, and sometimes I wonder if that was the right move to make. But deep down, I think it was the best move. My advice, and as cliche as it sounds... is to one, follow your heart or gut feeling. Sometimes our minds tend to be indecisive, but our hearts always wants what is best for us. Also, trust in Jesus. Perhaps you may be confused and scared about what the future holds for you. Heck, if that's the case, I feel the same at times. But don't let those negative thoughts hold you down. Put all your worries on Jesus's shoulders and he'll deal with it.
I'm sorry if I couldn't provide much help. Just remember, you are not alone and people want what is best for you.
I need your prayers, please...
...somebody talk to me...
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I'll will keep you in my prayers.
-Smiling always helps.