Hello everyone,
As no one confronts me, I might as well drop the egg to reveal myself. I have mixed feelings now.. a little indescribable, but the Lord tells me to go for it.. One week ago I returned from a 12-day holiday in the Spanish Pyrenees (Thank God we came out there alive!!! But that's another story..), to the waterfalls and France.. When I just came back the unsatisfying feeling in my life came back.. (great, I don't know where to begin the story.. ) Here I go.
I have great parents, a slightly annoying younger brother and I go to a foreign church on montly base.. School's going well, although I have no clue what to do exactly XD
In the past I used to be quite antisocial, I had practically no friends.. or at least I did not make effort to get some... because I actually never felt lonely..
Up until now I have seen friends come and leave. One of the only friends who stayed is Lord Jesus.. I am so grateful for that..
Also grateful I have discovered I-net (three years ago) and got a friend through that. We're very alike, we like the same things and such... it's so great..
But it's hard when she lives far away. I've never talked to her through the phone, because I feel so bad..
Something is pulling me down, .. I never talk, I never feel the need to talk a lot, a few sentences.. that's all.
You'd probably don't understand.. but it's so hard for me.. Well now you know social skills are my weakest point...
This influences my whole life.. this makes it a lot harder to communicate with people.
I prayed and cried three nights for friends and my future, because I want to do great things in the name of the Lord.
Perhaps it will be that incredible story I have in my mind, being translated someday into a comic.
Please pray for me
thanks a lot.
This is the first time I talk about it willingly, I refuse to in RL cause I get too emotional... :rolls_eye I feel a lot stronger now I'm saying it, while it's still though.. but this is a step in the good direction! Praise the Lord!
Laura
ps. pardon me for bad English, but it should be comprehensible.