I don't know how to title this.... but hardship...

[mysngoeshere56]

Okay so there's just some stuff going on right now.

Basically, something's wrong with me and I'm not sure what. Sometimes I feel like I can do lots and lots of things and that all this pressure I'm going through with submitting assignments and living life in general are all going to fade away and that I can control this and that it's all good and I'll get it accomplished. Other times I feel locked in depression and like things are just staying this way. Sometimes I feel like everything's going great, other times I feel like the whole world is about to crash down on me and drown me in horrid misery.

Sometimes I'll feel like I'm having a good day, but about two hours later I might feel like I'm having the worst day I've had in a long time. Then I typically go back to my happy side then sad again.... then eventually too tired to know what I'm feeling.

When I wake up, I always feel down. I feel like I have nothing to look forward to, so I just stay in bed. I'd estimate that I've been spending at least half an hour in bed after I wake up for the past while... until I convince myself that I'll have to deal with the day eventually so I FORCE myself out.

When I'm intensely emotional, I tend to eat. A lot. Now, it probably wouldn't be a bad thing for me to put on a little bit of weight. If I know my height and weight correctly, I'm about 5'9" and weigh somewhere around the 110-130 range... but I'm starting to eat so much more than I used to to the point it's ridiculous. I would probably eat all the time if I didn't have to think about getting overweight or sick and the fact that food costs money.

[Midori]

Prayin' for ya. Perhaps you should see someone about your depression? It couldn't hurt.

[animewarrior]

I know EXACTLY how you are feeling. I'm a chronic sufferer of the symptoms you listed except instead of eating to kill the pain I read books, listen to music and in general shut myself off from the world.

I know that it can seem like everything happening in your life is simply meaningless.. aka school..life in general... but in reality everytime you talk to a friend or even just finished a school work assignment you are doing what GOD wants you to do. He has placed you in the right place at the right time for a REASON.

Even if that reason is just to go to school so you can attend college to become a speaker or whatever God has planned. You are speaking into people's lives that you don't even realize... and PEOPLE DO CARE ABOUT YOU!

So yeah I'll be praying for you friend,
Sincerely,
Your Sister in Christ,
animewarrior

[Phantom_Sorano]

I too suffer from your same ailments, Mysnoge. One reason could be from iron defecionies. It causes extreme fatigue. Another reason could be manic depression. I was diagnosed with it a few years ago, and the symptoms are similar. I highly suggest you see a doctor about this problems.

A few things I would recommend are: watching a funny movie every night before you turn in. Laughing releases endorfins which will make you happier and healthier; Exercise for about 20 minutes a day. It sounds odd, but try to squeeze in time to jog or even dance around in your room to a few of your favorite, upbeat songs; keep a prayer journal. Write about how you feel in a personal diary, including good and bad things going on in your life. Write in there questions for God and thanks for him....it helps control emotions strangely.
Lastly, if you feel that you need medicine, I suggest that you take EM Balance. It is a natural vitamin that you can get from any health store. It's not bad for you- causing side effects and whatnot- it's basically a smelly Flintstones tablet that helps with your nuerons. It works very well.

Hope this helps.